tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45850893529578110262024-02-07T08:45:47.781-01:00A Student's Journey To LifeThe 7 year Journey To Life of a StudentRubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.comBlogger151125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-33134077772619047662023-10-09T18:59:00.000+00:002023-10-09T18:59:01.680+00:00Day 150: The Buddha Said<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCGDQBHgmvWskFDqjVU6jVf12TQVbSql64Lqp-QrbI4t2ip5kAXgvZjHrhVHCs3y6J1zRsSL9G6wwvj6Vy-0Lmb8X_y02YX0YIAZsZReAczpRd8i5mn9qc_5UVQkJjwqQpKdiqyZRODEyfI0zHXerv-JdIBZzxNsXoKG0vLOjGn-I28kuBQ-fC-aWnKLi2/s1000/ego.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="667" data-original-width="1000" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCGDQBHgmvWskFDqjVU6jVf12TQVbSql64Lqp-QrbI4t2ip5kAXgvZjHrhVHCs3y6J1zRsSL9G6wwvj6Vy-0Lmb8X_y02YX0YIAZsZReAczpRd8i5mn9qc_5UVQkJjwqQpKdiqyZRODEyfI0zHXerv-JdIBZzxNsXoKG0vLOjGn-I28kuBQ-fC-aWnKLi2/s320/ego.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p>The title is from a book by Osho. He never wrote a book, he simply talked and recorded that into audios.</p><p>I was listening to a song, the lyrics said 'tell me what to do' and it remided me of myself, when I thought that some other person might know better tham me, for example a brother slightly oder, like if that difference made a - well - difference</p><p>I don't know if this will reach many, but it is not important</p><p>Today I want to do some random self-forgiveness, or maybe on the uncertainty of 'making it'</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to make it in this world</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to gain recognition while I am alive</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feed my ego by having recognition.</p><p>I forgive myself that IH ave not accepted and allowed myself that it might not be my peers that get the message, but the future generations</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe instant gratification means anything</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not good enough if I don't get feedback on my writings</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I might not get any form of recognition in this life, but still this doesn't mean that I can leave an important message for the beings to come</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that recognition i useless</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that changing the world doesn't endow one with any recognition</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not work towards a world that is Best for All unless I get recognition</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that wanting recognition is Ego</p><p><br /></p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-30783751943876100492023-09-03T05:18:00.005+00:002023-09-03T05:18:47.018+00:00Day 149: Normal, Good Life<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj19EyDYiRhDq8vdVrUxStKtb76ry1LLbzKY5o9rgpkSki7i029Uq5oU9Q8bv2C3xGIAdp0LCDon6YujpCI9k0dAfA5nqbm3QIiviS0D-cWZ-PTfx1qiDRMk8uWx0PG4BYo5QGTjn8rLj8461Lz5LQTKNp6IIy3z8XV0zLKMK68QEteH9doiJxz_fwb6-EE/s4608/IMG_Ruben_Moutinho.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4608" data-original-width="3456" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj19EyDYiRhDq8vdVrUxStKtb76ry1LLbzKY5o9rgpkSki7i029Uq5oU9Q8bv2C3xGIAdp0LCDon6YujpCI9k0dAfA5nqbm3QIiviS0D-cWZ-PTfx1qiDRMk8uWx0PG4BYo5QGTjn8rLj8461Lz5LQTKNp6IIy3z8XV0zLKMK68QEteH9doiJxz_fwb6-EE/s320/IMG_Ruben_Moutinho.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div>I know who I am, I stand up for the abused whenever I have found myself in a situation where there was someone being abused, it is normal to me.</div><div>I know that I stand up for the abused because I have seen this in real time of myself. It is normal to me.</div><div><br /></div><div>I deserve to do all that I want in my life because I know whenever there is abuse I stand up for it/the abused.</div><div><br /></div><div>Life has to be easy for me and everyone else, natural like breathing.</div><div><br /></div><div>We all have to thrive and it has to come natural to us, like breathing.</div><div><br /></div><div>We all have to find that which we enjoy and do it.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am a cool guy because I stand up for the abused.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see my value that I stand up for the abused.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I deserve to live a good life because I care.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I should live a good life because I care for people.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself instead of considering myself as worthy of a worthy Life.</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that I am worthy of a worthy life.</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that I have to live a worthy life because I care.</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that I am intolerant to abuse whenever I come face to face with it.</div>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-23630141215572514022023-09-01T09:46:00.002+00:002023-09-01T09:46:18.975+00:00Day 148: Who am I<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuSXYS1FOxolGFYVX97y8vYYNlwYVvdOrCCkVSYQSbIi5_4iMyEoJXBTGP5kNFuaGfpd8c72iokOv2a2fxwy9TmDuQbVXfn5W-xH2y5tN8bNJkuKiZzsN9_9AuNyutS6aTnO03_3W8VYaiNHw16Xu1jCKzWLMi_NinUOwgqUdzQvuaCjc1rSxBYh3WrU8C/s1040/MBS-Knowing-Doing-Being.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="780" data-original-width="1040" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuSXYS1FOxolGFYVX97y8vYYNlwYVvdOrCCkVSYQSbIi5_4iMyEoJXBTGP5kNFuaGfpd8c72iokOv2a2fxwy9TmDuQbVXfn5W-xH2y5tN8bNJkuKiZzsN9_9AuNyutS6aTnO03_3W8VYaiNHw16Xu1jCKzWLMi_NinUOwgqUdzQvuaCjc1rSxBYh3WrU8C/s320/MBS-Knowing-Doing-Being.png" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to live the word perfection instead of doing my best in every breath<div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be perfect</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that perfection does not exist as it is dependant on every individual perspective</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be able to do everything perfectly instead of doing my best in every moment of breath</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here in every moment of breath</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to attract attention of others by doing something unusual/bold</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don't need to do anything outrageous in order to have attention from others, they can simply hear me for who I am </div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do something outrageous or dangerous to get attention from others</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to not see that I am important with or without attention form others</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to want attention from others</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed mysel to see that I can get attention for who I am not for what I do</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that who I am is more important than what I do</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not enough and therefore want to get attention for what I do/have instead of for who I am</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look at who I am, instead looking at what I do or have</div>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-49445285607540269592023-08-31T05:19:00.004+00:002023-08-31T05:19:43.766+00:00Day 147: Judge Not<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1fDDW-McXPZhsNBliHv_XusoA6ptSsyvZoMgfJAlWuYfQVwwNXevZ19VGKeqCTogYI64_ImhorEsG6K86OObpP3Tz5LplEzXuSPhziEvpGZBrTlFwjTRIgZTJVBnfxzHrBdWguK3BiNC2fxYq9ISCEZWVkczH0qXSuS__MRbEcj64hFO8XesmXkMaFfX_/s1584/40_Mat_07_01.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1584" data-original-width="1584" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1fDDW-McXPZhsNBliHv_XusoA6ptSsyvZoMgfJAlWuYfQVwwNXevZ19VGKeqCTogYI64_ImhorEsG6K86OObpP3Tz5LplEzXuSPhziEvpGZBrTlFwjTRIgZTJVBnfxzHrBdWguK3BiNC2fxYq9ISCEZWVkczH0qXSuS__MRbEcj64hFO8XesmXkMaFfX_/s320/40_Mat_07_01.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /> Yesterday I was approached by a friend, telling me that another friend had scared him and I, instead of reassuring that it was all fine by this friend that scared another one, I said that this friend that scared another one is 'strange' and giving some examples more-- thus judging in all its glory. Today I had to ask for forgiveness from this friend, also in presence of the first friend that came to me for help with this friend. All in all, judging is not cool because the person that is judged cannot defend themselves. Thus you are doing a trial without giving the opportunity of the judged to defend themselves. I would hate to have a friend near me that when other people ask him about my behaviour, he simply says that Ruben is strange -- not cool. It is simply to remind oneself that we should not judge at all, as life is difficult enough and however one decides to act in Life we, from the outside, cannot possibly know why of the way he acted like that. And in fact, in this example, judging someone as strange is detrimental to the relationship. From now on I will only talk well/positive of people or simply not talk unless they are present.<p></p><p><br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my friend as strange when approached by another one that he had scared.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to jump to judging instead of 'judge not - lest ye be judged'</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to jump to conclusions with my friend by judging him and his behaviour</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my friend instead of being here as breath and examine the situation with this other friend that said that was scared</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to judge not unless I be judged</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the dynamics of the friendship whenever I decide to judge a friend with another friend present -- which is detrimental to the relationship with the first friend.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that judging persons/friends is very detrimental to any possible relationship that can form between me and them.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that judgement of people is very detrimental of the relationship at all levels.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I judge someone for example as strange because of their way of living - I am separating myself from them and there is no possible friendship to be sustained between us as I separate myself from them within and as the judgement.</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-80148776546839629682023-08-30T15:00:00.002+00:002023-08-30T15:00:52.565+00:00Day 146: Success<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRrqEEnbosJcg-7pxoXlLuXMx_JazdwYyoGHu4PncIGJf0qbi6kKHnja6mfHFapwfZBRUVkLRwcAcOrCaw8MSQno-FINUBbLO0imhhARfHp2Jlb-a85Ht7775Tws6aNQQYesGEuixzchVDdzyUB0mcH2ioxS8u5CRYwo98KmRZnIWrZaTZ8OxGzjva2PDH/s1920/getty_495142964_198701.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1920" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRrqEEnbosJcg-7pxoXlLuXMx_JazdwYyoGHu4PncIGJf0qbi6kKHnja6mfHFapwfZBRUVkLRwcAcOrCaw8MSQno-FINUBbLO0imhhARfHp2Jlb-a85Ht7775Tws6aNQQYesGEuixzchVDdzyUB0mcH2ioxS8u5CRYwo98KmRZnIWrZaTZ8OxGzjva2PDH/s320/getty_495142964_198701.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p> I am the most relevant person to myself, and now is the time that matters the most to myself, now that I am alive and living: What do I give more importance to, money? or Life?</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more importance to money other than Life.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe if I don't have money I will cease to exist.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a job and thus not have money.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being homeless.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a job.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is of no use to fear not having a job.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more importance to money over Life.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that me being broke is irrelevant</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to see a bigger picture than me being broke or otherwise it is all I will ever be.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe broke is all I can ever be.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see further than my monetary value</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that my income is not a representation of myself.</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-1683865008088748662023-08-29T09:39:00.003+00:002023-08-29T09:39:47.700+00:00Day 145: It Matters<div><br /></div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be left out without a job<div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying</div><div><br /></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQqinrNtw3ItoDmd8AFJvzOl0bVjhv2-3ZuX5CZwKu_kpU9Q70pa77c7sMEBvHsoc0dPTLidZ6yd3GjvS8F3GVwxKlofIOF9t_q9ScKTMyQDqoVkHvK3RanIZgwIOkE1MZ1oX_p-ahZV-_-18Bg51xpmUdVPIbF4m_DUl8qYZqOSVc3NARTXXNwBEmEVPR/s300/images.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="168" data-original-width="300" height="168" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQqinrNtw3ItoDmd8AFJvzOl0bVjhv2-3ZuX5CZwKu_kpU9Q70pa77c7sMEBvHsoc0dPTLidZ6yd3GjvS8F3GVwxKlofIOF9t_q9ScKTMyQDqoVkHvK3RanIZgwIOkE1MZ1oX_p-ahZV-_-18Bg51xpmUdVPIbF4m_DUl8qYZqOSVc3NARTXXNwBEmEVPR/s1600/images.jpg" width="300" /></a></div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to provide for myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have acccepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that death is inevitable</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let fear rule my actions and decisions</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money to live</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to get money for myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being left out</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being fired from my job</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that life is at the other side of fear</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill myself with fear</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being self honest</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a job</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being trusted</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust others because I don't trust myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being irrelevant</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to fear being relevant</div>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-9502676186066708532023-08-28T05:27:00.001+00:002023-08-28T05:27:19.444+00:00Day 144: Mad House<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_6HADRU5eGU1-TqaFw3_P6uFYYREnFcaZxWdXXbr2w8IZcJ6sxsZ8osgPVb6LYDCzfJ0iXvHR2rYJ8Mk_V4COJFQ7HrQq--1oQgcZCu2BKWZ8_2OaJc1lcY1hdCND1qwd2dXdY3THjOkJyqm7Sf_lGp5eUw_OFNzta40ZPKIsTvO7nbK9IOhkFIiKxSU8/s1000/20140922201244-madhouse-cover-1000px.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="750" data-original-width="1000" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_6HADRU5eGU1-TqaFw3_P6uFYYREnFcaZxWdXXbr2w8IZcJ6sxsZ8osgPVb6LYDCzfJ0iXvHR2rYJ8Mk_V4COJFQ7HrQq--1oQgcZCu2BKWZ8_2OaJc1lcY1hdCND1qwd2dXdY3THjOkJyqm7Sf_lGp5eUw_OFNzta40ZPKIsTvO7nbK9IOhkFIiKxSU8/s320/20140922201244-madhouse-cover-1000px.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /> In this mad house, where they try to ply me with coffee and cigarettes, is where the revolution starts. I am not happy with only coffee and cigs you see? I can see I can do much more and so I will.<p></p><p><br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only do so much to influence change as onenes and equality</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can do much more to influence change as oneness and equality</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not sure of myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I give myself permission to stand up for myself - no one will</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am ready to stand up for myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself permission to stand up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am ready to stand up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need a mad house </p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the injustices of some placements of people in this mad house being unjust</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand how the system is rigged</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the system of equality is impossible with unjust rules at the mad house</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand how the rules of the mad house are unjust, placing people here in situations of helplessness</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand what I can do for equality in any situation</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not mad but are ruled by mad house rules</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I stop this madness - mad house rules will continue to apply to rule over people deemed as mad unjustly.</p><p><br /></p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-87358158477207822912023-08-17T23:54:00.000+00:002023-08-17T23:54:00.956+00:00Day 143: Do Something Every Day<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjpC7qiYJyLA2hkjkiCmxH-ZlwQzU09NMOgxnYmKDnZ1-Thb2TlNfjdy3NtqYMhH30Dw3xXOSqPHhKbCtFciF2CW8kqRMt-5wo28Rkqgvyf0urIGivEORCSVAjH8cxPjgjmz3x6noh9eAepT_YZmEw4ZEd_pJTzUNJlUWv0N0kU9Ww-wjfIX0PkR95_5EH/s249/6a00e551dd12f48834019affdb00b1970d.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="235" data-original-width="249" height="235" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjpC7qiYJyLA2hkjkiCmxH-ZlwQzU09NMOgxnYmKDnZ1-Thb2TlNfjdy3NtqYMhH30Dw3xXOSqPHhKbCtFciF2CW8kqRMt-5wo28Rkqgvyf0urIGivEORCSVAjH8cxPjgjmz3x6noh9eAepT_YZmEw4ZEd_pJTzUNJlUWv0N0kU9Ww-wjfIX0PkR95_5EH/s1600/6a00e551dd12f48834019affdb00b1970d.jpg" width="249" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>I realized today, to change effectively I can do something every day.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the power of accumulation</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the power of accumulation</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the power of accumulation</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the equality equation of 1+1 =2</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that what I do can accumulate to greater change</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty by not accumulating what is best for all every day</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysel for beating me up for apparently not doing what is best for all</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realise and understand that whatever I did in the past led me to where am I now so I should be careful</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be proud of myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have acdcepte and allowed myself to put myself down</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysel to believe that if I am not manic I cannot be my best self</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be grateful for everything I have done as it has allowed me to be and become what I am now</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe process has to look a certain way</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that thinking process have to be a certain way is judging it and myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that having an idea of how process is is just an idea and not real¨</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have the right idea of how process should be, when in fact I have no idea</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be stubborn about how process should be instead of going with the flow</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-70406568494796898492022-11-14T20:27:00.002-01:002022-11-14T20:27:47.232-01:00Day 142: Act Now<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7yvHNMxkZT-tmYEQGDDTaLMxZ6dlQQUQIEwI9iv-cOM3PswAG4kpWIgIwz5vkPHtizi7P_svtYCFjY_b49GmcdMStIawjCDse639D6MH_uGF5MCEeyRPI3FeQSdxC0su6CdXJELxPa0JWIuWhQGtyrchtaYK4F9J4GuAAMTNDwfHr1uhySc4LKZQD0A/s556/act-now-for-now-is-all-you-have-quote-1%20(2).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="271" data-original-width="556" height="156" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7yvHNMxkZT-tmYEQGDDTaLMxZ6dlQQUQIEwI9iv-cOM3PswAG4kpWIgIwz5vkPHtizi7P_svtYCFjY_b49GmcdMStIawjCDse639D6MH_uGF5MCEeyRPI3FeQSdxC0su6CdXJELxPa0JWIuWhQGtyrchtaYK4F9J4GuAAMTNDwfHr1uhySc4LKZQD0A/s320/act-now-for-now-is-all-you-have-quote-1%20(2).jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait
for something to act, as in poverty or riches<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that waiting is waiting and there is no excuse for it<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
see the simplicity of everyone being supported to have their best life possible<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
put excuses to not act in every moment in a way that is Best for All<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realise and understand that unless I act and we act nothing will be
done<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realise and understand that unless we do something nothing will be
done<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that the system that is running will continue to run until annihilation
of all possible life<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to not see that I am not alone<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that we can unite to get change<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that waiting is the root cause of change NOT happening<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see, that the fact that I have a job doesn’t make me protected from an
uncertain future, as many have at the present moment<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see, realise and understand that unless I stand as an example of what is possible
many will not be able to stand up because of it<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that many will not be able to stand up if I fail to stand up in every
moment<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realise and understand that I am one, yet everyone finds themselves at
the same position, being one, so it is only natural that if I stand up many
other ones will do the same<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realise and understand that I can do so much that I yet don’t know
because I have not put myself to do it<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
see my creative potential because I have not yet put myself to do all that I
can for equality<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that I am capable of so much more<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that I have to act whenever I see I can act, without postponing or
waiting<o:p></o:p></p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-76069654323678358772022-11-13T16:30:00.002-01:002022-11-13T16:30:56.851-01:00Day 141: Worker Thinking and Money<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEir6TDpGJFDBuZ7A6hahcq3gx3_KkRIeIR3RZ9bCUVnZlYsN3Eq42JI0-TksfpGbkEeI3MZnbNZbRQTepZipXtusWnSGvzo_V7ofy4EzaPQapG9dU4V0_WpzaNmbQrbC19wKBIpHjX8DaxtCDfqp8gP-ToK3BjsFTkloXIWj2H6HP0PEfyI3h5QkOSRQg/s600/work.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEir6TDpGJFDBuZ7A6hahcq3gx3_KkRIeIR3RZ9bCUVnZlYsN3Eq42JI0-TksfpGbkEeI3MZnbNZbRQTepZipXtusWnSGvzo_V7ofy4EzaPQapG9dU4V0_WpzaNmbQrbC19wKBIpHjX8DaxtCDfqp8gP-ToK3BjsFTkloXIWj2H6HP0PEfyI3h5QkOSRQg/s320/work.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a worker</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can also be self employed</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will always be an employer/worker</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by defining myself as a worker</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can start my own business</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that all I can be is a worker</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that all I can be is employed for someone</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can work for myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a slave</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a slave</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not a slave</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior when it comes to making money</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe money can be made through working for someone else only</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not required to work for someone else for money/I can work for myself for money</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a work/no work polarity of good and bad.</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that I can work for myself</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that to work for myself I will have to work for myself/build self discipline</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that I am only that which I accept and allow e.g. slave</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that it is never too late to stop being a worker/slave</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-12620007131688946272022-10-29T11:35:00.001+00:002022-10-29T11:35:13.138+00:00Day 140: Sacrifice = Investment<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7S3mQWG7OlFYfJcsj7u12jwriigFVReSqIyWf6s2JJ4oEHr-zMVDbAVOxxJGzwiLgnehyHNKOHnPUuqF3Acqt0MiANyVU88gI9Nm3lOqSTD1m5X0c2gC11bhtye9UWFHT9e61hBspfFRyYr117QA8JfMu0QS6gXp0O-gginUrttJCXyo1DO6Gw2gGEw/s1600/548236-Andy-Stanley-Quote-Giving-up-something-now-for-something-better.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="900" data-original-width="1600" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7S3mQWG7OlFYfJcsj7u12jwriigFVReSqIyWf6s2JJ4oEHr-zMVDbAVOxxJGzwiLgnehyHNKOHnPUuqF3Acqt0MiANyVU88gI9Nm3lOqSTD1m5X0c2gC11bhtye9UWFHT9e61hBspfFRyYr117QA8JfMu0QS6gXp0O-gginUrttJCXyo1DO6Gw2gGEw/s320/548236-Andy-Stanley-Quote-Giving-up-something-now-for-something-better.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Sacrifice is in reality an investment. Giving up something for something better. We should all consider investing in Equality for All, as it has the best ROI (return on investment) possible, ever, for All.<div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that sacrifice is needed in order to obtain anything of value.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear sacrifice believing that I will not get anything in return if I do sacrifice.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to make sure I get something in return BEFORE I make the sacrifice.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that sacrifices have to be unconditional for them to work.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the fact that a sacrifice is unconditional is because results are never guaranteed.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want guaranteed results.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that nothing in this life is guaranteed, except death.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I understand how sacrifice works = I will not see that it is in fact a simple investment</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to decide to invest in Life and Equality for all - and Equal Rights</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undertand that the best investment there is = is Equality for All</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that sacrifice is another word for investment, they are interchangeable words</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my investment for Equality will not have returns - instead of investing unconditionally - as I see it is the only possible way.</div>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-24613221726590960752022-10-28T07:41:00.000+00:002022-10-28T07:41:04.282+00:00Day 139: Effort Understood<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5b3uVAm5ied3ENFnMCJ5s69g52PY1_cZvxfGhCi_PeFkcOWR9CPLWP6naAi3pFIaHEIGhMC9mBoAkITB_rKLQzhhbQoLFNPMKGNRP1fAXPPkMYTCIoXigpKrZgq4JZkuq7ZWq7NtLnajMQ8ZRA1P9AJYfQqboRo4MoDt3HHTUZJ4ZUEqE5J_lX7jU8A/s1200/175.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="628" data-original-width="1200" height="167" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5b3uVAm5ied3ENFnMCJ5s69g52PY1_cZvxfGhCi_PeFkcOWR9CPLWP6naAi3pFIaHEIGhMC9mBoAkITB_rKLQzhhbQoLFNPMKGNRP1fAXPPkMYTCIoXigpKrZgq4JZkuq7ZWq7NtLnajMQ8ZRA1P9AJYfQqboRo4MoDt3HHTUZJ4ZUEqE5J_lX7jU8A/s320/175.png" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>What is effort? When I dont know how to do something, it takes a process to learn it, it can take effort - and when I know how to do something, doing it can also take effort. Some things like play, lets say using a unicycle, it takes effort to learn, but if I enjoy it then it doesnt look like effort, so it all boils down on if I want to do something or if I do it because of survival for example, like a job. Changing the world will take effort, of course, but even the butterfly in its metamorphosis, that takes effort, yet it is inevitable and vital that it takes place.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear effort, doing effort.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that everything takes effort that is worth.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the effort that my physical body does every breath to keep me alive.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is worth it to put effort to change myself and the world.<br /><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that repetition as effort is needed sometimes, many times, to produce a result</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that consistency is needed in order to produce a result, which takes effort.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that consistency is key</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the domino effect is real</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that movement it is not seen in the domino effect while the pieces are being placed and only in the end you can see movement when one piece is pushed</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the usefulness in the domino effect, where pieces can push other pieces up to a half bigger than them, in a geometrical progression.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am in fact a piece on a domino effect-like situation</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I push, as in a piece of the domino that is pushed - there will be no movement of the domino pieces</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I stand for what is best for all, me and many other individuals will not stand because of it</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being an example is so important because without it nothing is possible</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid effort, not seeing, realising and understanding that in doing that I am avoiding reward as result</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge effort as difficult</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to appreciate the effort that nature does to keep this planet alive and the effort that humans have to do that are in poverty to survive</p><p>I commit myself to make an effort in reminding myself that everyone and everything is making an effort on this Earth -- to make an effort for what is Best for All on Earth</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that any effort that I do - is equally done by many other parts of the Earth system and inhabitants</p><p>I commit myself to show that any effort that one does is not more or less but Equal to Lifes effort to thrive on this planet</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that I simply have to join in the Lifes effort by doing my part</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-79297241223978745702022-10-22T11:46:00.000+00:002022-10-22T11:46:06.368+00:00Day 138: Wich Way is The Way<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGZJnUh67hJ1sbxy_Mcp2qegxIXPH5Agth9FF8dHQ-0S0aY8nXqtLKNQLNEyI0pD_lOhtdSRQ-l0YRZnawzaC15xd_v15453RFUyNW3RDFHzSEMfB634GZpJ6crcpdgDGjswfjM1tHkfA-n_yNI-WX-MiqYTNliXmfUNIibIF5_i5m2IXQDuY_cN96CA/s750/way.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="501" data-original-width="750" height="214" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGZJnUh67hJ1sbxy_Mcp2qegxIXPH5Agth9FF8dHQ-0S0aY8nXqtLKNQLNEyI0pD_lOhtdSRQ-l0YRZnawzaC15xd_v15453RFUyNW3RDFHzSEMfB634GZpJ6crcpdgDGjswfjM1tHkfA-n_yNI-WX-MiqYTNliXmfUNIibIF5_i5m2IXQDuY_cN96CA/s320/way.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>Learning is the way, that is for sure, and, at some point unlearning as well, because if what I am doing is not working it means that I have to learn something new, and maybe at the same time unlearn something old - and apply.</p><p><br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not being successful</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unsuccessful through judging myself through false standards</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not celebrate my life by judging it as unsuccessful through judging it with false standards</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that money is not the only measurement of success</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I change the way I see myself I will keep judging myself - thus limiting myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the opportunities that I have in my life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I stop judging myself I will not be able to see the opportunities that are available for me, right in front of me</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how self judgements are self limiting/limiting my life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am in a far better situation than I believe</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that beliefs about myself are also a limitation</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the belief that I am not successful is not true</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I have done nothing to have x amount of money, then I will not have x amount of money</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have x amount of money instead of doing something to get x amount of money</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a failure for having X amount of money instead of seeing that it is impossible I have Y amount of money if I do nothing to have it</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that limiting beliefs are limiting indeed</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am alone</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am isolated</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am free, free to change all that I dont like or want to change or improve of my life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I apply common sense in my life, nothing will make sense</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do what I have proven myself to work</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to care about others´ judgements</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to others judgements, opinions and sayings about me and what I do</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-12422468654589355082022-10-10T17:23:00.003+00:002022-10-10T17:23:59.667+00:00Day 137: Less is More<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMv9S3UQyQoXWenHORTyTgvqwD4V61J1fApQBHHZ6440iuw7lYIuZlTpAVeNabYJYyXEDERM6I2mDoxhU7ZyF87aYTT6T52BqAqvW9-azmvFltfvfQcq7SDgAFyaUoFcwC1sbxgFHbXMztzl3Bki2bDv8Er07lORLJJPV-9zEh_1PsPMB6sQHqIzc0Lg/s474/OIP.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="313" data-original-width="474" height="211" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMv9S3UQyQoXWenHORTyTgvqwD4V61J1fApQBHHZ6440iuw7lYIuZlTpAVeNabYJYyXEDERM6I2mDoxhU7ZyF87aYTT6T52BqAqvW9-azmvFltfvfQcq7SDgAFyaUoFcwC1sbxgFHbXMztzl3Bki2bDv8Er07lORLJJPV-9zEh_1PsPMB6sQHqIzc0Lg/s320/OIP.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><span face="Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif" style="background-color: white; color: #546e7a; font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.4px;"><br /></span><p></p><p><span face="Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif" style="background-color: #f3f3f3; font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: 0.4px;">NOTE: I wrote this on Dec 10, 2021, but didn't publish it, until now.</span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;"> Nine years have passed since I wrote in this blog, and I am happy to write here again. I am older and (maybe) wiser but also I might have had a different spark back in the times I was 22. I am 31 now. </span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">Back then I had a wish, that things would change. And things have changed, for the worse. I am talking on an existential level, here on Earth, things are getting worse. And I see that I can't do much about it other than starting with myself. This has also been the point, self first, and here I am. It's 1:26 at night and I can't go back. I can't go back to when I was 22 and coerce myself to change, it is in every moment that I have to change.</span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">I have been obsessed with change, but what is it really? When all on the outside collapses. When there is only me left with myself in my bed at night, with unrest for what I could be doing, so much more than what I have done. </span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">But there - I was going to say that there is hope - but there is no hope, there must be no hope, because hope has mantained me in a way of inaction, not changing myself hoping for a better future. It doesn't work this way. </span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">At the moment I see myself so insignificant but it doesen't have to be this way, I have kept writing blogs on two other blogs that I have kept, astudentsjourneytolife and bipolarsjourneytolife. I skipped the students' journey to life because I thought I was no longer a student - and could do a better job at walking the bipolars journey to life. As I was saying, it doesn't have to be this way. I feel insignificant because I believe I have no relevance, and I believe I have no relevance but yet this message will reach someone so I will go to the facts:</span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">We are fucked - and this is not a negative message. There is no way out - and this is not a negative message - but only one, to do what is Best for All. And I believed that by merely keeping alive I was doing a favour to someone - that is not true. It is not true because by merely surviving, nothing will change. It is time to create - a world that is Best for All. </span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">And this is what frustrates me - but why - because the world is not Best for All. Then I should start with myself - push myself to become the best version of myself. That is why I am writing now, not to cry, not to rant and rave about how fucked we are, but there is a way out, remember? Yes, no matter what I do I cannot escape from the consequences of my actions, and so everyone else - from consequence.</span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">So in the meantime, while the world goes to shit, we are doing like Nero, singing with a small harp while the city burns down to the grown, but withdraw the R, remove the R from Nero and you get Neo - the matrix is real and the red pill is real too. Still have to change the world though - but in the meantime I will recover first from taking the red pill - which is when Neo is in a way reborn in the movie -- I am walking my 7 year journey to life to be born again in the pysical, to stop the mind.</span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">I still remember the first time I realised I could talk in my head, to curse and say whatever I wanted, as a little child - it was precisely when my dog was put down and I was very angry, then my mind activated and voilà it was running like a perfect machine - but it can be unplugged. Check out Desteni.org and the blogs, 7 year journey to life blogs, and start your own so that you can show as proof the process you walked and where you stand, because in times of trouble no one will know = who to trust.</span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">7 Year Jorney to Life on Facebook: <a href="https://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife">https://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife</a></span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">My blogs</span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;"><a href="https://bipolarsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/">https://bipolarsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/</a></span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;"><a href="https://astudentsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/">https://astudentsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/</a></span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">Enjoy</span></p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-66319462519008801722020-12-02T00:33:00.004-01:002020-12-02T00:35:14.789-01:00Day 136: Superstar<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia1E5smJ0LrmYtTC_Ddi0Xp2jTtaE1rOAraeDDBX6Ik9Whu0Wwwk-xENYRFkCEKrIpec98NKmIA7XeltNfOwubWm54hO8Jjwt28R5Gkd1RXuHc4iOIs5gThMsglH3YmxG_ksVWTjsxNQTB/s1280/failure.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="1004" height="395" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia1E5smJ0LrmYtTC_Ddi0Xp2jTtaE1rOAraeDDBX6Ik9Whu0Wwwk-xENYRFkCEKrIpec98NKmIA7XeltNfOwubWm54hO8Jjwt28R5Gkd1RXuHc4iOIs5gThMsglH3YmxG_ksVWTjsxNQTB/w310-h395/failure.jpg" width="310" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The reason why I am so effective at the moment lies in what I've done for the past entire life, so since I was 17 and you can check here in this blog <a href="https://astudentsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-111-paranoia-of-failure.html" target="_blank"><i>Day 111: Paranoia of Failure</i></a> and specifically <a href="https://astudentsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-112-paranoia-of-failure-part-two.html" target="_blank"><i>Day 112: Paranoia of Failure - Part Two</i></a> "<span face="Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #333333; font-size: 13.524px;"> I did not "have the courage" to </span><a href="https://eqafe.com/p/reptilians-experiencing-life-vs-living-life-part-52" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #993322; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.524px; text-decoration-line: none;">live</a><span face="Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #333333; font-size: 13.524px;"> out my desires/</span><a href="https://eqafe.com/p/self-interest-in-self-honesty-how-does-that-work-reptilians-support-part-169" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #993322; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.524px; text-decoration-line: none;">self-interest</a><span face="Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #333333; font-size: 13.524px;"> and </span><a href="https://eqafe.com/p/how-to-stop-suppressing-kryon-my-existential-history" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #993322; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.524px; text-decoration-line: none;">suppressed</a><span face="Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #333333; font-size: 13.524px;"> it, but continued to not take responsibility for myself just in case 'I get to live that'. So I did not immediately go and live out the desire, but </span><a href="https://eqafe.com/p/life-review-waiting-for-my-life-to-happen" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #993322; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.524px; text-decoration-line: none;">wait</a><span face="Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #333333; font-size: 13.524px;"> in </span><a href="https://eqafe.com/p/wishing-and-hoping-and-dreaming-reptilians-part-257" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #993322; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.524px; text-decoration-line: none;">hope</a><span face="Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #333333; font-size: 13.524px;"> that maybe possibly at some point in </span><a href="https://eqafe.com/p/atlanteans-the-past-the-present-and-the-future-part-20" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #993322; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.524px; text-decoration-line: none;">the future</a><span face="Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif" style="background-color: #c0a154; color: #333333; font-size: 13.524px;"> I can live them."</span></div></div></blockquote><p>Not to say that I am any different than you, or do what I did, each has to walk from where they are. I am the same as you as Life, as One and Equal as Life. I simply have been more close to my being from deciding to not only not go far away from my being but in fact remain very close, only separating by my addiction to Energy and not wanting to take responsibility for stepping up from there to Living my Utmost Potential, that is the part I am starting to walk now in Self-Perfected group on Facebook. Join me in my journey and understand the importance of blogging/vlogging. My Youtube channel '<a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBwpy6tW09A" target="_blank">What Has Blogging Done for Me</a>'</p><div class="style-scope ytd-video-primary-info-renderer" id="info" style="align-items: center; background: rgb(249, 249, 249); border: 0px; display: flex; flex-direction: row; font-family: Roboto, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"></div><p>You can also check for reference my other blog to see how I have changed: <i><a href="http://bipolarsjourneytolife.blogspot.com">bipolarsjourneytolife.blogspot.com</a></i> and my very first blog started in April 2008 <i><a href="http://iamruben.blogspot.com">iamruben.blogspot.com</a></i></p><p><br /></p><p>Read these outloud if you dare to.</p><p><br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to energy.</p><p>I forgive myeself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become like a demon that feeds of energy</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is more to Life than participating in Energy</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if anyone can do it I choose to be the one that stands up first if no one else will</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that if the world has to change it doesn't matter who pushes the button, me or anyone else, and that if no one else does, I will.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that where am I now is a direct consequence of what I have done with my life.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I've been redpilled and I should really consider stepping up to the game and stand up for real.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand my untapped potential</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that hey, this is Real.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that once I say my first self forgiveness statement there is no going back.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that no matter what, I will prevail.</p><p>Whenever I see I participate in any form of energy, I stop and I breathe, I earth myself as I let go of the addiction to energy.</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-54333633336145121482020-11-26T02:37:00.003-01:002020-11-26T02:37:51.263-01:00Day 135: Perceived Failure<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6bTSOSr8hayfBRFMytYhkS8kdHtkt75aUe1pb0qNqzAkk_2fnGRmOCwWtSbl3dwXLLkeUxcHA3Ty5mFjrthLE3zdARwSywCITdWFTLkOHBoji3dfeeS_wayE0lItKSXCMfemJhHaTBwCm/s512/me.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="512" data-original-width="512" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6bTSOSr8hayfBRFMytYhkS8kdHtkt75aUe1pb0qNqzAkk_2fnGRmOCwWtSbl3dwXLLkeUxcHA3Ty5mFjrthLE3zdARwSywCITdWFTLkOHBoji3dfeeS_wayE0lItKSXCMfemJhHaTBwCm/w320-h320/me.jpg" title="Day One is Everyday" width="320" /></a></div><p>'Day One is Every Day' This Picture was taken when I was at Uni, and I thought that I had big plans and a britght future ahead, and I started with one dollar --- lolol Every Day, Every Breath is an opportunity to expand myself, stop looking into the future so much, have a look, yes, then back to Here. I have set my Vision, the ultimate goal, which is to Do/Live that which is best for all. As I posted in a comment on Facebook it 'Means Living my Utmost Potential and translates into then creating in myself the change I want to see in the world - to then implement it in the world. So my Vision is That which is Best for All, and transates to, in every breath, consider it in every action, so for example doing my bed in the morning, working a job to propell myself forward, studying self-perfected on facebook -- all of that is already walking my Life Purpose of the ultimate goal of creating a world that is Best for All'</p><p>Who are we to judge ourselves? To say that 'I am a failure'? Who I really am is Life, not a Failure, failure is failing to do, failing to act, yes, but not 'I am'. I have failed to act, failed to do, failed to apply, yes, many many times, many many days lost so to speak. But I am still here, this is what counts. Those who abandon the race lose the race, -- stay in! It is not a race, it is more of a long run, with steep hills, calm valleys, and rivers to drink fresh water. Be water my friend! If you judge yourself as a failure, look back and see, in fact, how much you've changed because now you are applying yourself by merely reading blogs for instance such as this one!</p><p><br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a failure for not having walked consistently.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise everyone's process is different.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am not my failures.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that judging myself implies separation and it affects the way I can walk from Here onwards</p><p>Thus</p><p>I commit myself to stop judging myself, as it undermines my capacity to change in every moment - thus hindering my process/future.</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that life is a Journey, with setbacks - real or perceived - and 'wins' - real or perceived? - Life IS! So I commit myself to remind myself to accept what is here, all the fuckups I've done and walk with my head straight with a vision for myself that is Best for All.</p><p>Whenever I see that I judge myself as a failure, I stop and I breathe. I realise I am Life, not a failure, I am walking towards Life -- no matter what -- and that by judging myself as a failure I am limiting my standing, stunting my process of growth - Within this I commit myself to stop myself whenever I see I judge myself as a failure.</p><p>Whenever I see that I resist doing something, I stop and I breathe. I realise 'should I do this thing, I will expand' - and then choose accordingly to Expand myself and to do the very thing I resist. SO I commit myself to do that which I resist.</p><p>Whenever I see that I have too much to do, I stop and I breathe. I realise there is only so much I can do in one breath, so I commit myself to keep it practical and prioritize that which is most supportive for myself within the realization of 'self comes first' as supporting myself is the first step in walking the principle of doing that which is Best for All.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that whenever I judge myself as a failure, I have already condemned me and said 'I cannot do more' which is in fact self interest to not have to stand up for myself and change immediately, in every breath.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that uness I change, I will not change.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I don't have to Compare myself with others, as I have my special set of circumstances internally and externally that have led me to where I am now, with my own acceptance and allowance so:</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that I am Where I Am now because of my own acceptance and allowance, but it is not to judge myself for it but rather see - that by not accepting and allowing myself to participate in how I did in the past And through walking within principle of what is Best for All - I will change.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that everyone's process is specific -- so I am walking a particular point that is of Equal Value as any other being in process that is walking their Particular Point.</p><p>Enjoy!</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-41976734615428870882020-11-25T05:52:00.000-01:002020-11-25T05:52:00.491-01:00Day 134: Perceived Evil Shit as Hostage Taking<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgG_x6mR7xTGfm0gAzd6zbKOvXEue2BsWr7vD_gppSDO6HeuPOhm-e8CevN86mkJvFk9XrB2Y9Kc-_zblXFZSfFSZ4-NivO0sGO_pzHJEwtb_4oh0FqRs5zfQY_IFCrKRhh4xmwWFbPwp6e/s1280/FB_IMG_1606242831435.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="855" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgG_x6mR7xTGfm0gAzd6zbKOvXEue2BsWr7vD_gppSDO6HeuPOhm-e8CevN86mkJvFk9XrB2Y9Kc-_zblXFZSfFSZ4-NivO0sGO_pzHJEwtb_4oh0FqRs5zfQY_IFCrKRhh4xmwWFbPwp6e/s320/FB_IMG_1606242831435.jpg" /></a></div><p>There are some point or points that I can use to not have to stand up for myself, it is simple, look for something that I jutge as Evil, do it, then don't forgive myself for it. The result is that I have effectively taken myself Hostage by myself. Brilliant. Today I relieve myself from my Perceived Evil Shit. So that I may never again play hostage taking with myself and stand up for myself unconditionally.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in Perceived Evil Shit so that I have something to not forgive myself for to not have to stand up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by participating in PES.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in Perceived Evil Shit as self extortion/hostage taking of myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I will have to forgive myself for everything so I better not fuck around with hostage taking games.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have an excuse as to why I won't or can't stand up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe participating in PES is a valid excuse to not stand up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disturb myself deliberately by participating in PES</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that games like PES are valid to not have to take responsibility for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that by participating in PES I will be harming myself ultimately</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe playing with PES is acceptable to abandon myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abandon myself from participating in PES as self extortion</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hide my participation in PES </p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my PES is evil and judge it as evil</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that participating in PES will stunt my process</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as evil from participating in PES</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of participating in PES</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear from participating in PES as to what if it is known</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself into submission</p><p>I commit myself to support myself</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself to not sabotage myself</p><p>When and as I am tempted to participate PES, I stop and I breathe. I realize I will have to stand up for myself no matter what, so I better do my best to not sabotage myself.</p><p><br /></p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-43553445035318618632020-11-23T22:02:00.000-01:002020-11-23T22:02:33.702-01:00Day 133: Giving 100%<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqi5ISlpUFxDq571m72ItXvZLpqMbvulcPDinkT2XQtg7yrh1MxrIWTjvHTXNlXDn1DKP-0DgnbPqVtJkVfkbrB1ja0nKLMluZagEbdx1a3QRuqqY3NWeKHSwUjZvRKD9wirkfdT2iX_6w/s605/empty.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="605" data-original-width="600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqi5ISlpUFxDq571m72ItXvZLpqMbvulcPDinkT2XQtg7yrh1MxrIWTjvHTXNlXDn1DKP-0DgnbPqVtJkVfkbrB1ja0nKLMluZagEbdx1a3QRuqqY3NWeKHSwUjZvRKD9wirkfdT2iX_6w/s320/empty.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>A moment ago I did a live video on facebook about why I am commited to give 100% and now it feels like I am empty inside - which is different.<div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge being empty as difficult</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysel to want to feel energy moving inside myself.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not energy</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stop because 'I am not feeling anything'</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am still Here.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that feelings don't matter.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my inner experience</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that experience may not be real</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not feeling anything</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot stop for a feeling or lack of it.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to walk despite of everything</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need a motivation to move</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can move myself by principle</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect a reward for standing up for Life</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in fact it might feel worse to stand up for Life, meaning, uncomfortable.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up because 'I don't feel anything'</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself I have to walk no matter what</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to support my physical body</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself to breathe</div><div><br />I commit myself to walk no matter what.</div>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-52969294227767677912020-11-22T20:04:00.000-01:002020-11-22T20:04:00.003-01:00Day 132: Life as Death<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEis-_ZiDc3P9cXI0XBYpCFW6Ni8McXUBfuoscaY0olwIBdxI6iCDxHgtxgXvs1VyMiIWbY7XcbMi0RDohpm3CYdQqhuWvCFrIpTVl5gLnj1DbU7xwX-378-eozy8VgYlQt0w8F39kPOJyN1/s477/ADE.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="268" data-original-width="477" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEis-_ZiDc3P9cXI0XBYpCFW6Ni8McXUBfuoscaY0olwIBdxI6iCDxHgtxgXvs1VyMiIWbY7XcbMi0RDohpm3CYdQqhuWvCFrIpTVl5gLnj1DbU7xwX-378-eozy8VgYlQt0w8F39kPOJyN1/s320/ADE.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>Death is so final and all encompassing that why should not I live life the same way? Meaning, absolutely, definitively, to the utmost degree of effectiveness. </p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live in a way to create the utmost degree of effectiveness in my life.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can stand absolute within this one life I have been given.<br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I stand up for myself, I never will.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I am actively working hard on improving myself I won't be improved as the programming that I currently have must be transcended before I can program the new.<br /><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise or understand that I am the very thing that will make me rise or fall.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my past for not standing up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make all kinds of excuses to not stand up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself in a way that I don't have to take responsibility for myself ever - instead of challenging all self beliefs.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my self-beliefs are real.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I change, I will not change.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that we are not here to fuck around.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to honour myself as Life.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that who I am now is not who I really am - otherwise I would not have a preprogrammed/programmed mind.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the potential I have</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to underestimate myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is up to me to decide to unlock my utmost potential</p><p>I commit myself to investigate and apply my utmost potential</p><p>I commit myself to push myself to be and become the best version of myself</p><p>I commit myself to take Life like Death is, ruthlessly, definitively, All-Encompassing, effectively - applying myself to live this while I am alive.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOGuauOkagfDGBiwdOTsn8HMpFk2Ggv5EhmMawYquU7aU93XYTmpUnZmj_ehwnU5fcLxm6xILNW1mha7gGyngpxWm6Up6ESHrKf165-uq5TLGk5XICn5b15YqLCDSSB_-V5P2AjlC_sarp/s752/asa.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="501" data-original-width="752" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOGuauOkagfDGBiwdOTsn8HMpFk2Ggv5EhmMawYquU7aU93XYTmpUnZmj_ehwnU5fcLxm6xILNW1mha7gGyngpxWm6Up6ESHrKf165-uq5TLGk5XICn5b15YqLCDSSB_-V5P2AjlC_sarp/s320/asa.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-13447133351315497912020-11-19T20:25:00.000-01:002020-11-19T20:25:17.473-01:00Day 131: Where are You?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPj225ST8UR084HyO691sEZwlhrDkqDomKNX_LMIV6WeF-FtvSjgFzmmZw5Bab1Zwgf1r7G5jW69T2Ux8jAbRSi4YA5SXdS4yt5KtlcZoZ4-EIXYSv9LYsLRBaqAW4owWsAG8wCwWiHD7L/s1280/maxresdefault.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="1280" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPj225ST8UR084HyO691sEZwlhrDkqDomKNX_LMIV6WeF-FtvSjgFzmmZw5Bab1Zwgf1r7G5jW69T2Ux8jAbRSi4YA5SXdS4yt5KtlcZoZ4-EIXYSv9LYsLRBaqAW4owWsAG8wCwWiHD7L/s320/maxresdefault.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>The day I woke up to pain and suffering on Earth was when I was about 10, I was living in a community so there were kids my age and some where older in the same big house, and one day one of the older teens/early tweens if I recall well talked about how there are 'snuff movies' where for instance - and this shoked me the most - they would torture people and for example take their eyes out with a spoon. I got shocked to the core, and I realised this = If I am in one room, and someone is geting tortured in another room not too far away, I would not feel their pain. In other words, we do not feel the pain others endure. There was something off.</div><div><br /></div>The other day I had this realization: No matter how awesome you are, if you are not Here - if you are not where you are supposed to be, it is as if you don't exist. For example, if you have to and don't take care of something, if you are not there for it, what does it mean to this thing? It is as if you don't exist. The thing you have to take care of does not benefit from you being 'awesome somewhere else'.<div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to not be Here for me.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be Here for everyone else.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take care of All life as myself.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-responsibility.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chose the easy path.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the easy path is not easy.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the trap in easy.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to open my eyes to what is here as the Truth of what is Here.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by believing that what I do doesn't affect others - when in fact the opposite is true.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can be and become much more than what I believe is possible.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am always somewhere - so I have to make sure that where I am is Best for All</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to not see that whenever I am not where I am supposed to be, someone suffers.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it does not matter how awesome I am if I am not the Best version of myself within the context of what is Best for All.</div>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-46321204502170503682020-11-08T15:24:00.001-01:002020-11-08T15:24:43.195-01:00Day 130: Shame of the Past<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjxkIUEEm7swiGn2_4A-wkAIxQjDxxBkIxI1_xU7m5ZdSsBNlN5YWRoTrXLnmwc7N2EEVRoXmIpTZ17Nto9o97TS7-Plwekg05XbXRuLS7rWsY5wdHskHIAkbhNe-V8xiG_GuPokcstL9hK/s1200/60448173.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1200" data-original-width="1163" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjxkIUEEm7swiGn2_4A-wkAIxQjDxxBkIxI1_xU7m5ZdSsBNlN5YWRoTrXLnmwc7N2EEVRoXmIpTZ17Nto9o97TS7-Plwekg05XbXRuLS7rWsY5wdHskHIAkbhNe-V8xiG_GuPokcstL9hK/s320/60448173.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Yesterday a friend wanted to watch a movie about USA's punk rockers that did a bunch of drugs, this is not exactly my past but I resonated a bit with at times wanting to get away and party too much, and I was not proud, how could I have been so foolish? Now I relish any time I have left from work to apply myself, to better myself to self-perfect -- but I realize it is a process and now I can say I can close that door for good.<div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in partying too much.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to almost say 'fuck you' to the system and do whatever I want to do in terms of partying</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste my time partying.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the self-sabotage in partying too much.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe partying hard is cool</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to party hard</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'partying hard' is self-application in every moment</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that partying hard is yet another form of distraction from self-application in every moment</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that no matter how good the party is, there is no party until all can party</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have not to judge me for having partied, but simply to realize to not repeat the past mistakes</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that me believing I am not ready for change is simply another excuse to not have to stand up for myself and change</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am ready for change, and have been for a while, but I simply didn't give myself permission to do it</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can stop whatever it is that is a distraction in a single moment</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that I allow myself to change</div><div><br />I commit myself to remind myself that I am ready to change</div><div><br />I commit myself to remind myself partying hard is in fact dangerous</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that I have to be responsible for myself and for All</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that doing whatever it is other than all that I can to change self and the system is in fact self-sabotage.</div>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-49595242507234956102020-10-31T03:40:00.000-01:002020-10-31T03:40:48.172-01:00Day 129: Work<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-RoA-N1_g0pnBguMthJnsdbbWVa5qAOszewbeOzeuJ5dDpJVDUBgOeAEC5sVnOg_dXpSALo6Fb9f0k6SSLAqKeZH15PLbO_RJqTgQ0yQml7kFs2OCoQz1o_XAVitnh162aKy6IgnRaWd1/s800/81_Dull-Job-01.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="400" data-original-width="800" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-RoA-N1_g0pnBguMthJnsdbbWVa5qAOszewbeOzeuJ5dDpJVDUBgOeAEC5sVnOg_dXpSALo6Fb9f0k6SSLAqKeZH15PLbO_RJqTgQ0yQml7kFs2OCoQz1o_XAVitnh162aKy6IgnRaWd1/s320/81_Dull-Job-01.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><ol style="text-align: left;"></ol><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>Do you judge work as dull, boring even as sabotage of some kind? I did. I found this limits me extensively because then I don't work for myself! Work can be and is self support, by applying the discipline I put into work into working for myself on my projects for example is the solution to get out of laziness and start supporting myself better.</li></ul></div><p>I forgive mysef that I have accepted and allowed myself to see work as dull</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see work for what it is = self support</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself with the belief that work is self sabotage</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that supporting myself with work is cool indeed</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise or understand how work is simply an expression of self support</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see work as something I merely did for a third party</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the empoloyee mentality</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see work as an investment in myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by believing I have to work for someone else and that is the defintion of work</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that working for myself is also work</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can work to lift myself up both finantially and also expand as a being</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that whenever I work I am supporting myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see work as self support</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see work as dull and draining</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whenever I work I am expanding myself as I am expanding myself in everything I do that supports myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that work is not enslavement whenever is supportive to get to the next step</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see work as an stepping stone in self support</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that I can indeed work and support myself at the same time while I do it</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I see work as enslavement, dull and sabotage I will never be able to work for myself to improve my situation and that of others as myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am actually good at working</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can put the discipline I apply in so called 'work' to work for myself to support myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to transfer the discipline I put into work into all areas of my life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit the discipline I put into work into work-for-another only</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can take grains of truth in how I express myself and apply it into the whole of my living</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that the solutions that I live in some areas of my life I can apply to problems of some other areas of my life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to unlock my true potential by interwining as opening the gates that separate what I do best in some areas of my life so that my whole living is improved</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I am facing a problem I might have faced the same problem and solved it already so only have to take some application such as how I work into another point that needs correction</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can grind</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have grit and thus can apply it in all areas of my life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that if I live a limited life is because I don't allow myself to see myself for who I really am</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-30141099968536858372020-10-18T07:07:00.000+00:002020-10-18T07:07:03.609+00:00Day 128: ConceptIOn<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCAGsUt7g6xLbgxuDmPmchyphenhyphendO31e9soj3oBwBomBSZr91MEHxZZ0fkTy2tzPuWMFrHFmLbQDwlmw9WN4nRV6uREzuFXMZfw5h8_KTeJMIRy50fB_wkDu6W9Dv1XZf_H6vBYtIrkPP-mdXy/s960/medium_early-engagement-preparing-for--university-study2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="540" data-original-width="960" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCAGsUt7g6xLbgxuDmPmchyphenhyphendO31e9soj3oBwBomBSZr91MEHxZZ0fkTy2tzPuWMFrHFmLbQDwlmw9WN4nRV6uREzuFXMZfw5h8_KTeJMIRy50fB_wkDu6W9Dv1XZf_H6vBYtIrkPP-mdXy/s320/medium_early-engagement-preparing-for--university-study2.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p>Initially wanted to name this blog 'Pregnant' but I do not want to be misleading. I am not in a relationship where she is pregnant, no, as I am writing this I am riding to work and I was semi asleep when a strong sense of 'I am pregnant and I am not doing anything' arose. So I asked myself, where is this coming from? And it is funny because I have put myself a timeline of 8 - 9 months to start my business. But the business is not what came up when I asked myself the question of where this came from, it was more about Me - where I am in the process of letting go of the old me to, yes, birth a new me so to speak - the business is merely a side effect of my new direction. The part 'and I am doing anything' arose because with me right now I have a laptop and about two hours, and was not doing anything useful with it. So this blog to mark the start of my newfound care for myself. 'Concept I On' - or 'I am on a concept' as this all is still bsut a blueprint that I have to live and even the blueprint is in the design stage.</p><p>Self Forgiveness </p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value myself as my time.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to utilise all the available time to support myself and train.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that if I don't support myself effectively I will not be able to go through with my plans.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I need all the time I can to support myself - so use all available free time.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that for something to move I have to push, or pull, for it.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can enjoy the process of creation.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am enjoyment.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that with enjoyment things are easier even if hard.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the hidden ingredient in hard as enjoyment</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to express myself as myself in what I do.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread doing anything I deem as hard as I judge and believe it has to be painful, painstaking and that I won't enjoy it.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can enjoy doing something that is so called hard to do.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can live the word focus.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can live the word direct.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I will not stop for anything in my process of change, so may as well enjoy what I do.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don't have to fight something that I deemed as hard, simply is something that requires focus, being direct, and discipline - it does not mean that I will suffer or that I will take pain from it.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myelf to fear/resist doing stuff that I judged as hard as in my definition of hard there was pain, suffering and this is not how it is as hard merely means requiring focus, direction and discipline.</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-63143146080551418422020-10-05T09:18:00.001+00:002020-10-05T09:18:10.515+00:00Day 127: Hey, I am Here<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYE_WSqo1TZIIxYvg5OmOH_wCSTQJ-VPZCJNblguQZVUVlQCKUNTk1kzdj0UAIMsOqXxx4rwNvUUj8RpbOxLLMtOkHRLHFScCe5rT_6YZsahTmqDB4KAugnH8XqCGnoUzfA_BJ2R81EE6O/s1536/o-TUNNEL-LIGHT-facebook.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1024" data-original-width="1536" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYE_WSqo1TZIIxYvg5OmOH_wCSTQJ-VPZCJNblguQZVUVlQCKUNTk1kzdj0UAIMsOqXxx4rwNvUUj8RpbOxLLMtOkHRLHFScCe5rT_6YZsahTmqDB4KAugnH8XqCGnoUzfA_BJ2R81EE6O/s320/o-TUNNEL-LIGHT-facebook.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>Do I have your undivided attention? Ok now, I want to recap and have a look at principled living, what are the principles I commit myself to live by. The first one is: <span style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", Trebuchet, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 15.84px;">1. Realising and living my utmost potential</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I see this one principle as the question, am I doing all that I can to realise and live my utmost potential? This question is twofold, one is investigating what I am capable of and the second living the change. </span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I can realise my utmost potential by self-investigating and walking with the tools provided by Desteni, with DIP Lite and Pro and with utilizing TechnoTutor.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I can live my utmost potential by living my realisations, applying them breath by breath.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not able to investigate myself.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not good enough.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate what I am capable of as my utmost potential.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not se I can be and become much more.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worth of my utmost potential.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I am worth of my utmost potential.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that merely not doing anything will solve anything.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am directly responsible for myself and my world as without my participation everything would be different.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am here to be and become that witch is Best for All.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span></p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585089352957811026.post-90372993979266864352020-09-17T15:27:00.001+00:002020-09-17T15:27:13.603+00:00Day 126: Stability as Matter<p>Lately I have allowed myself to have mood swings without realising that I am Matter - and that's what matters - Stability as Matter.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhCvTqho7m_Y8ZQTZO0Iyup2TADKH6ICgaX3ybv06wf6pV1ykDYv2lDMzH1wAc1fTLOkNlkcVJSH57BaA-B7scTDkjG94PT5d7WBdC5EXlhN2usd9dqGTa8VwdyFthZS3McHts5zAT7LMD/s800/800px-Logan_Rock_Treen_closeup.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="800" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhCvTqho7m_Y8ZQTZO0Iyup2TADKH6ICgaX3ybv06wf6pV1ykDYv2lDMzH1wAc1fTLOkNlkcVJSH57BaA-B7scTDkjG94PT5d7WBdC5EXlhN2usd9dqGTa8VwdyFthZS3McHts5zAT7LMD/s320/800px-Logan_Rock_Treen_closeup.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as breathe.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape this reality.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to direct my reality as breathe.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate standing up for myself.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am here no matter what goes on in my mind.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that most that happens in my mind is bullshit.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that it is not important what goes on in the mind in terms of giving it importance.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to believe that I am my thoughts.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my emotions.<br /><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my feelings.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I am more than my thoughts, feelings and emotions.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to celebrate that I am here.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that no matter what, I am here.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that no matter what goes up in my head I remain here stable.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand the stability in matter.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am matter.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am mood swings.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that no matter what I am still here stable infinitely.</p>Rubenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10208381377171195882noreply@blogger.com0