Day 13: Fear of the Future

Day 13: Fear of the future

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I forgive myself that I have accetpted and allowed myself to fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my life being a failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking a decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing failure when taking a decision.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in not deciding I am already deciding and that if I fail it is always because a series of decisions that I have made.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that If I don’t actively participate in taking decisions but ‘let life pass’ the outcomes as failures are not so much my responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that wherever I am in my life it is a direct consequence of myself and my actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let fear of the future to control me to not take decisions and make them real by walking them to the full extent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to stick with a decision in fear that I may fail or that it may be the wrong decision.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is not so much about taking the one decision that will make or brake my life but that I have to walk it – because even if the decision I take results to be one with an outcome that I’d like to have, it still needs to be walked.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it does not matter what decision I take if I don’t make it real – realize – it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make real my realizations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making real my realizations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let fear of the future to lead me to a 

insecure and fearful isolating life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to isolate myself in fear of participating in my life in fear of failing/not making the good decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want something to happen in my world that will make things happen and change instead of realizing that I am the creative and directive principle of my life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that as a creator I create my life wheter I am aware of it or not.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am continuously creating my experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to re-create my past experiences through living in my mind as fear and trusting my mind within this fear instead of seeing that I am not my mind or the fears I experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ab-use (abnormal use) myself by isolating myself in fear of life instead of realizing that I am actually fearing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ohters outside of myself create my world and within this fear the world instead of realizing that I create myself and that the world is the accumulative result of everyone’s worlds.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the opportunity to face myself and walk through what I have created as my internal world that has created the reality that I experience now in fear that I may screw my outer world instead of realizing that it is already screwed because otherwise I would not fear walking through it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to wait until my world is screwed up completely before walking through the shit I’ve accepted instead of realizing that this desire already shows how full of shit I am and that it is enough for me tos top and correct myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give excuses to not have to stand up for myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the way I am living now is not in any way who I am as I have been conditioned and have copied from my environment  and thus 

I cannot trust what I experience because I have created in ignorance and thus I have to walk within common sense not trusting my experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rally in my mind with excitement whenever I have a realziation within myself about my situation/life/experience instead of seeing that I have to make it real step by step by walking it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from myself within the experience 

of energy so that I don’t have to face the reality that I have created.

I commit myself to make my realziations real through living them in the realization that unless I walk my realizations they will never be made real.

I commit myself to stop terrorizing myself with fear of the future in the realziation that whatever comes in the future is something I have created and thus will show to myself what I have to correct of myself.

I commit myself to stop blaming anything or anyone outside of myself and take full responsibility for myself in the realization that in placing responsibility outside of myself I am allowing myself too make excuses and justifications and arguments about my situation to not have to change it.

I commit myself to stop the belief that there is one decision that will make or brake my life instead of ralizing that the decisions I take have to be lived to reality and that it takes time and thus not one decision by the merely fact of taking it in a moment will change my life forever.

I commit myself to stop wanting my life to take me to an event that will make my life change in the realization that unless I move, nothing will move in my life in the way I see I have to direct it.

Day 12: Energy

I have experienced how the starting point of energy in doing the blogs, energy that I experienced as competition, dropped. In not having more energy from the mind-competition then the question of who I am emerges as I have the opportunity to continue without energy and walk or give up. Giving up is only an illusion because I have to inevitably face myself - and so I can chose to continue living in the illusion of energy and giving up or walk reality - to walk the blogs no matter what from self-directive starting point instead of energy motivated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write the blogs from the starting point of competition and wanting to arrive to the goal instead of remaining here as breath without participating in energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the experience of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need the experience of energy and rushing to be able to move myself to write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to move only within energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that giving up is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I am does not consist of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don't have the experience of energy I cannot move myself to get things done.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by motivating myself through energy to do blogs I am limiting myself because I am subjecting my self-movement to energy that is not sustainable and runs-out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move only if I have the experience of energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how limitied I allow myself to be and become when I only move through energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to move within the starting point of myself as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the experience of energy is real and use it as self-gratification to 'feel good'.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the feeling of feeling good in participation of energy from the mind is not real and that it is a polarity and not stable and that it cannot last.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop the illusion of energy and walk within common sense .

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up self direction for energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the consequences of giving up self direction for energy.

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself in giving up to energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can 'run out' of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I only need breath to move myself and that the believe that I need some experience to move myself is false.

I commit myself to move myself within breath without subjecting myself to energy experience in order to get things done.

I commit myself to push trough the 'energy drops' that I may experience in the realization that I do not consist of energy.

I commit myself to prove to myself that I am not energy through walking through what I have to do in common sense disregarding all apathy and other experience of rejection and resistance.

Day 11: Self-Responsibility vs. Childish Acting

Day 11:


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take responsibility for myself and complain about my failures to others instead of taking self-responsibility and walking the correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to take responsibility for myself instead of realizing that in order to change the outcome of what I participate in, I have to change my relationship within that.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk the solution that I can work out for myself as to what to do to solve my current situation and problems that I face, but instead decide to remain in failure so that I don't have to change and can continue complaining to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot help myself and that others must do this for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to love myself enough to take care of myself and the problems I face and instead, project this care to others in wanting another to worry for me for the problems I apparently can't overcome.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get attention from people within my environment me by repeating to fail on the same points over and over again instead of realizing that I don't need attention from others but from myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to believe that getting attention is receiving love/being loved instead of realizing that it's a construct I have designed in order to not take responsibility for myself.

I commit myself to stop acting in a childish way in being irresponsible in the desire to get attention and instead I walk the correction in walking in self-responsibility by directing what I have to do.

I commit myself to stop the cycles of self-abuse in order to be noticed in the realization that I don't need external beings worring for me in order to feel loved but that I require self-assistance and that unless I take the time to assist myself I will keep on believing that I need external love, which is not real.

I commit myself to stop wanting to get attention from outside of myself in failing at what I do.

I commit myself to stand up from self-failure and move to self-application.

Day 10: Inevitable

Day 10:

Just like death, to make a future for myself I have to go through education and thus studying is inevitable, I have been avoiding studying which means that I have been sabotaging myself. Time to stop this madness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid studying eventhough I know it is inevitable that I walk through education to prepare a stable future for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by avoding studying.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to get down to the actual movement of studying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not act in front of the realization that it is inevitable that I get an education to secure my future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up to resistance and fear and not get to the task of studying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want someone so save myself insted of realizing that I will have the outcome in my life that I create and accept for myself - and that this system that I find myself in has rules that are ruthless and so I have to be ruthless as well with my studies and not waiver and fall every time I am faced with studying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to risk my standing within my studies by procrastinating studying.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is useless to take time for myself to study if I don't study.

Thus:

I commit myself to stop procrastinating on my studies in the realization that 'I will still have to do it later' and that in procrastinating I am risking my standing within my studies.

I commit myself to apply myself within ruthlessnes in my studies by not having compassion with self-pity, fear and self-doubt by stopping myself from participating in them, breathing and getting down to the actual work of studying.

I commit myself to direct myself to push self-discipline with my studies so that I can get effective within my studies and stop the cycle of failure.

I commit myself to stop all regret, anger and shame for not having stopped and studied in the past in the realization that it is a disctraction that again is not taking responsibility for myself.

I commit myself to stop the consequence of not having studied in the past by doing the very thing I did not do = studying.


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Day 9: Nein, No

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Day 9:

When saying 'no, I don't need your help' or 'you cannot help me with anything' at the offer of assistance from someone without looking within myself if I need their help or if there is anything which they can assist me is ego. The ego as almighty perception of self in not considering the reality and the fact that there are limitations and that I have to utilize in self honesty the opportunities I have to expand myself and that by myself I can do very little and if I cannot do something by myself, I may let myself be helped so that eventually I can help someone else in a similar position.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard someones assistance without looking within myself if they can assist me to expand myself with some points of myself/my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the perception about myself that I am stronger and better if I do all by myself and that if I let myself be helped I am weak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have to consider everything in my world from the starting point of the principle of what is best for all, including the offers of help I may get.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to be helped so that I don't change and can continue playing the victim and not taking responsibility for myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to humble myself in realizing that I am in no way almighty and that not wanting to get helped is a protection for the mind to remain in control in my continuation to give up self-direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reply to an offer for help from the starting point of protecting my ego as my personality and self-definition about myself of being self-sufficient instead of the starting point of what's best for all - I realize that I have not proved this to myself - that I am self sufficient - and I can see it in how I have no control over all the outcomes of my life and death.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that 'wanting to make it by myself' is a statement of ego that prolong my process unnecesarily.

I commit myself to consider every offer of assistance that I get in looking at it in terms of how can it support me to walk within the principle of what is best for all - before replying to the offer, as I realize that it is best for all that I utilize all that is available in order to put myself in a position where I can effectively walk my process.

I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself by refusing to get help that could assist me in my process - as I realize that I can't be certain that the same offer will be available when if I want it in the future, so I commit myself to take the time to assess every offer of help.


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Day 8: Last Minute Movement

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Day 8:

What is up with me studying always at the last moment? Preventing me from studying or moving myself in general until the last moment to then rush through the experience of 'getting there' in fear of not being able to 'get there' like in having an exam = is  boosting my mind-energy by deliberately postpoinig starting an activity until I am not certain wether I will be able to make it or not due to the little time availabe, where I can blame not having studied much as the reason to give to myself if I don't pass the exam.

This is a form of not trusting myself because I let myself postpone until a point where I am not sure if I will succeed at the task I have to do, to have an excuse if I don't complete the task in time or if don't get the result I wanted with the task, by saying  the excuse that I did not prepare myself with enough time.

This is not giving myself the opportunity to finish the points and see for myself if I am effective or not REALLY, because by doing stuff at the last minute I am jumping and skimming through the task I have to do and never get deep into it, so I can't be specific and get the thing done apporpiately. In doing this I make myself to fail at the task and then judge myself - and all this done in self-interest to not have to face myself, because if I prove to myself with this manipulation that I am not able to do something when I fail the task, apparently I don't have to face myself within the task that I failed due to not letting myself work through the requiered points to do it with enough time and dedication put into it.

All the points in the past where I failed at my studies, for instance, I did not prepare myself effectively. This is an ego point because if I were to prepare myself for an exam, and then the result were a fail, then I would take it personally.

In procrastinating and doing stuff at the last moment if I fail I utilize the excuse that I didn't have time/I didn't start in time so it's not my fault, apparently, it's not that 'I am not able to do it' it's just that 'I have not given myself enough time to do it' and 'if I give myself enough time to do it, I can do it' but I never do give myself enough time, so I can never prove myself that I can. So, this is utter bullshit mutliplied by infinite because by not wanting to find myself in the position where I applied myself to get a result for instance in my studies - and then I get the opposite result to what I wanted to have = I take it personally as in 'I am not able to do it/I am therefore stupid/dumb/less than those that can do it'. In fear of finding myself in the position where I apply myself to get a point done and fail it, I deliberately put myself in that position by  not giving myself time to apply myself within it so that at the end I don't see it as a 'personal' fault/defect of myself but that I can blame it due to not having enough time.

See, by fearing to find myself in the realization that I could not pass an exam eventhough I studied thoroughly I am putting myself in the position where I do fail the exams - but my ego remains intact with excuses. Here I have to take a decision, wheter I give up Ego and put myself to the test in studying and going to the exam and seeing if I pass it or not, or procrastinate, not prepare myself and fail at the exam (or not) and if not, be able to blame that I did no thave enough time.

Since Ego is not real and my marks at school do have an impact on what I can do in this reality, I'll rather stop this Ego insanity trip and realize that even if I apply myself and study and then fail, it only means that 1: I have not been applying myself effectively and/or 2:I have to keep pushing and applying myself within the points I've been walking so that I am prepared to pass the exam.

Here some Self Forgiveness to move myself from Ego to best for all self-movement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live as and for Ego, in order to preserve it, even if I have to fail at my exams in order for it to be left 'untouched'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately procrastinate to apply myself in studiyng until it is the last minute so that if I fail, I don't have to blame myself but I can blame not having enough time - instead of realizing that the end result is the same: Not passing the exam - and thus the point of preserving something that is not real - Ego - is not valid at all but extensive self-abuse and self-manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear realizing that I am not able to pass an exam.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the fear of not being able to pass an exam, participate/design a system to protect my Ego that consists in not preparing myself effectively for the exam so that if I fail, I can blame not having studied/not having studied enough as the cause for not passing the exam, so that I can maintain the illusion and self-image and self-judgement of myself as intelligent - and where if I pass, I can congratulate myself and boost my ego with the thought and the speaking and sharing the 'epic tale' that I passed the exam 'eventhough I studied at the last moment/I studied very little'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I pass an exam having studied for a short period of time it means that I am better than others, wiser and clever.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that this strategy of studying at the last moment is nothing of clever or wise but self-sabotage to not have to face myself if I don't pass the exam after studying/putting effort in studying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I prepare myself for an exam and I don't pass that exam, I am stupid and I have reached the point where I know that THAT is my limit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear realizing that I have reached the maximum that I can do within my studies, instead of realizing that studying is like any form of training where if one trains one gets better at it and so the effectiveness in exams increases through application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I study for an exam and don't pass it, I am then not able to pass it - instead of realizing that I can integrate the knowledge and how-to necessary to pass the exam with my application in studying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate studying until it is the last minute in fear that if I study and don't pass the exam it will mean that I am not good enough.

I forgive myeslf that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not good enough and want to cover it by not applying myself in studying until it is too late so that when I don't pass the exam I can blame it on not having had enough time to study.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to miantain an illusion self-judgement about myself as wise and intelligent and fear this belief being shattered by putting effort and time to studying and then getting a bad result on the exam.

I forgive mysel that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in order to be successful at my studies I have to walk step by step the applicaiton of myself within studying so that it accumulates each day.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I put the time and effort to study I will not see what I need to change - or not - in order to pass the exams and in order to get better at studying and in order to actually pass the course.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make something that is not real as Ego and Fear of failing real - in reacting to my fear of seeing myself fail despite my effort for passing an exam - by not studying until it's too late so that I can blame not passing the exam on not having had enough time to study.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that failing exists and that if I don't pass an exam it means that I have failed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take it personally when I don't pass an exam and that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately not prepare my exams in order to be able to blame my 'unpreparedness' so that I don't have to see myself as stupid/dumb and less than those that passed it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear seeing myself as imperfect and not able to pass through an exam if I have studied for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I prepare myself for an exam and don't pass it = it means that I am dumb, stupid and less than those that did pass it - instead of realizing that I need more application and that my effectiveness and direction is not enough and needs expansion through self-application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself believe that if I study for an exam with what I percieve as 'enough time' and dedication and then I don't pass it it means that I have failed and therefore I am - and have to judge myself as - defective, dumb, stupid and 'less than' those that passed the exam.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself in fear of not passing an exam if I have studied for it in fear of breaking the believe and self-judgement about myself that I am smart, intelligent and clever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as smart, intelligent and clever and want to keep this created self-image and believe about myself by not walking through an experience where I see that I am the opposite of it: dumb, stupid and less-than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a polarity in passing or not passing an exam where if I don't pass I am stupid/dumb and less than others that pass it and if I pass I am clever, intelligent and smart.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sort-out the polarity I placed within passing or not passing an exam by not studying until the last minute/until it's too late so that I don't have to blame myself for not passing by using the excuse that I did not have time -instead of realizing that the net result of doing this is failing most or all the exams I present myself to and that if I fail an exam that I have prepared it does not mean that I am therefore a stupid, dumb and inferior being than those that did pass it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate in studying for my exams so that there is no opportunity to shatter the self-image and belief about myself that I am clever, intelligent and smart because if I don't pass I utilize the excuse of not having prepared myself and if I do pass I can judge myself as smart, intelligent and clever for having passed eventhough I had very little time to study -  in both cases feeding my Ego as self definitions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to define myself as better or worse in relation to how I perform at my studies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined myself according to how I perform at my studies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave myself by the fear of being unable of practically passing my studies/exams and within this separate myself from my studies and in doing this create an alternate reality where I always win and I don't have to face myself with practicality/the physical reality of studying that requires step by step application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose being a winner in my mind and a failure at my studies than to apply myself at my studies and deal with self-judgements in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a failure for not having passed exams/courses of my studies in the past..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not humble myself by walking the studying in time that is necessary to prepare an exam effectively and going to the exam and thus exposing the believes about myself to be broken if I do fail the exam/not pass the exam.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within wanting to preserve my self image and perception about myself as clever create a system where that perception as my ego is never challenged by having excuses as to why I didn't pass and also being able to boost this perception-narcissistic idea about myself of being clever if I do pass by saying to myself that I am such a clever guy for having passed an exam with little time to study.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that If I pass an exam I am smarter than if I don't pass it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the full opportunity to pass an exam by not studying and doing all that is required to prepare myself effectively within the limitations of physical reality and instead preserve my Ego as self definition of being superior as smart and clever in placing the excuse of not having had time to study in studying at the last minute so that if I fail in passing the exam my ego remains intact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in my self definition of clever to the point of creating myself to risk to fail all the exams I do by studying at the last moment.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the point where this system of studying at the last minute worked had to reach an end as I moved through the stages of education where the difficulty and specificity and the time required and effort required is increased - so that I would not be able to pass by studying at the last minute as a selection process of the education system so that only a few can get and pass through higher education as a filter so that not everyone can get to the top of it and only those that managed to apply themselves effectively get there.

I realize that I am not a failure for having failed exams or repeated study years.

I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself in participating in my mind as perceptions about myself but to deal with my studies at the practical level of the physical by not allowing the mind to fuck up with myself by breathing through my application.

I commit myself to stop judging myself according to the results I get at my studies.

I commit myself to stop fearing my own self judgement by stopping it when I see it in what I do - as I realize that not moving myself to study is judging myself as incapable of passing an exam and a mechanism that protects my ego so that if I don't get to pass the exam, I can blame not having had time to study as the cause of not passing the exam instead of having to change myself.

I commit myself to change myself to become effective at my studies instead of using self-deception and blame to not have to take responsibility for my studies.

I commit myself to stop whenever I see that I am going again to procrastination in order to blame not having had time to study.

I commit myself to study as I realize that in studying I am stopping my ego by not giving me a 'way out' through blaming 'not having had time to study' as the reason of failing the exams - as I realize that by the mere fact that I procrastinate studying until it's the last moment/too late = I am in fact wasting time and thus I cannot claim in any way whatsoever that I did not have enough time, as I procrastinated and wasted the time available to study.

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Day 7: Self-Judgement

Day 7:

I reacted to someone saying to themself 'stupid' with the thought in my mind of: 'don't say that to yourself' so there must be a point where I am judging myself and I will take it back to the point of my studies. It is best for all I do some self forgiveness on this point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unefficient with my studies for having failed in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to someone judging themself with the thought 'don't say that to yourself' instead of seeing that I am somewhere judging myself and that I am projecting outside of myself by wanting another to stop judging themself instead of me stopping my self-judgement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a failure for not having passed exams in the past and having to re-do the same course.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link not passing a school-year with the word 'failure'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a failure in self interest to not have to face myself with studying.
 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize self-judement as an excuse to why I don't have to walk the correction within my studies but instead give-up because of accepting the definition of being a failure.

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can 'be a failure' instead of realizing that it is not who I really am -it's only an accepted self-definition of limitation that is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limt myself by juging myself as a failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by defining myself as stupid instead of realizing that it is self-manipulation in self-dishonesty to not have to walk through the point of studying.

I commit myself to stop self-sabotaging myself with self-judgement by identigying where I judge myself and stopping and correcting it with self-forgiveness and practical application.

I commit myself to stop manipulating myself by judging myself so that I do not have to face myself within school but instead throw a spanner in the works.

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