Day 126: Stability as Matter

Lately I have allowed myself to have mood swings without realising that I am Matter - and that's what matters - Stability as Matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape this reality.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to direct my reality as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate standing up for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am here no matter what goes on in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that most that happens in my mind is bullshit.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that it is not important what goes on in the mind in terms of giving it importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to believe that I am my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my feelings.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I am more than my thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to celebrate that I am here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that no matter what, I am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that no matter what goes up in my head I remain here stable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand the stability in matter.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am mood swings.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that no matter what I am still here stable infinitely.

Day 125: Enlightenment

For quite some years I thought there is some type of enlightenment that one can experience. Now I have realized it is not real, with a simple question: How do you think your perception would change if you 'become enlightened'? 

It is this simple, a light won't shine on you or you won't be more shiny.

In other words nothing will happen other than self change. Nothing in the outer nor how you will experience the world, of course if you change yourself your outer world may change, or it may not. In any case nothing magical will happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe enlightenment exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see enlightenment is a deception

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that waiting for something external to happen is a deception and a mistake

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe something such as enlightenment exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ground myself here and see that this world is all that exists

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for enlightenment to happen to me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not becoming enlightened