Day 151: One Year

 

Acceptance, of everything in my life, of everything that is here, without exception. One year has passed since I last wrote in this blog, and I can see a bit of change, then I have to continue with more blogs. I have written in other blogs in the meantime like this one. 

I have been listening to Osho talks, specifically the audiobook called 'The Buddha Said' which coincidentially is the title of last blog entry I wrote here one year ago. Finally I have reached what the Buddha said lol

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that once one reach the point of nothingness - one has to build oneself as that wich is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate 'nothingness' with 'idleness' when that is not it in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that even if I have reached anything at all, I should keep writing blogs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that no one 'makes it' in this life until All 'make it'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what matters is this physical 'matter'/world and not any special feeling of grandiosity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stop when I reach the point of nothingness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I don't program myself to do what is Best for All at all times - then there is no use but abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is a point where I can 'sit back and relax' about the things such as blogging and vlogging which are supporting many and should not be stopped

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am capable of daily writing no matter how I feel

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am already programmed to write every day as the habit I have created

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that anythings that fucks with my blogging or vlogging should be destroyed/vanished

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have reached nothingness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I had reached nothingness I would immediately stand for what is Best for All - all other behaviors are of Ego and not the point of nothingness in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I ever reach the point of nothingness I will be blogging and vlogging more and not less

I commit myself to continue vlogging and blogging as much as I can

I commit myself to remind myself that something is off if I am not vlogging and blogging as much as I can