178: God & Me

If you cannot find something it means that you are that something and when you hear this phrase you think maybe about God, no one can find him therefore we are all God and this carries a big responsibility because we literally shape the way the Earth is and its problems

There are no problems, there are only solutions

The solution is an equal money system where everyone is supported

And on an individual level I can change my life at any given point when I am tired of the way I have been so called manifesting or creating a life that I don’t like for myself, I can change it

So 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my life has to be or go the way it has been going

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct myself to continue the way of life I have without questioning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have zest for life, to not be anticipating good things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I can have, be and become whatever I want in this life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see and realize and understand the gift that I have been given of money in the form of a paycheck in the form of a work so that i can develop myself in any way I want 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I don’t have to be a wage slave all my life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I am not who I was - who I have always been, and I am not anyone new also - I am the one that has been here all the way along and will be after I die

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that death will easy my life instead of seeing that my life is actually very easy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that creating my life means being uncomfortable at points

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being god means having a lot of responsibility 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of responsibility or avoid it, try to avoid it 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can lose myself in something I can do - when this is impossible 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use drugs in the past to not face myself

 I forgive myself that i have accepted on myself to be pessimistic about myself and my life 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have the marvel of marvels on Earth which is a human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my physical body, and not properly take care of it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that change is inevitable - change is what it is what is going on - but I can direct change to be the best possible for Me and for All

Day 177: Air Traffic

Today I was thinking, if there is air traffic control in every country, why can’t we make a system that provides for everyone? We can do it.

There is no excuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the world is artificially scarce

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this world favors the super rich and the rich and the elite instead of favoring everyone equally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear challenging the status quo

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a good experience instead of doing what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the hypocrisy of the rich saying that this is how is it how it is not able to change to be changed 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that i have to speak up for everyone every one life, every single human being

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if i don’t speak up I am accepting and allowing the abuse to continue

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that unless i take action nothing will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the change starts with my self-change and nowhere else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that for the world to change I have to change myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have the tools to change and that I can get more to change more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that staying in silence is abusive in this world of abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that scarcity is artificial

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everywhere that help is needed, help is able to go, like when countries need extra food, water, or other medical attention, medical supplies, etc

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to make an inner work for me to be able to stand up for myself and for all

Thank you

Day 176: I’m Possible

I don't feel like writing. I don't feel like making a blog. But I don't feel like giving up also, which is stronger than this. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am stronger than giving up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that giving up is not an option

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that anything is possible 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that impossible means ‘I'm possible’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that, it doesn't matter how difficult it gets, I will never give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am enough to write a blog a day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that unless I push myself to something it won't be done automatically

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that everything is possible 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my options are limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not think big

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am big

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that whether I think I am big or I think I am small, I am right

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself. to fear pain in dying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is pain in dying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have endured probably more pain in life than I will in death

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that one thing I will be proud of when I die is if I didn't ever give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I cannot help everyone before I help myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that maybe in helping others I will lose myself and then everyone's fucked because I cannot help everyone, I have to help myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to help others instead of helping myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that help is only possible if I assist myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the blog will not be good enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that as long as it supports me it's good enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there's no enemies, only self to be directed 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there's no fear that can stop me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being unimportant

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be important

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be relevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not treat myself as relevant and important to myself, and want it from others

Day 175: I Will Make Something Big

'I will make something big' maybe it's only me but I think everyone has this point inside themselves where they think that they will make something big, and it's cool because it doesn't have to be outside of themselves it can be on the inside and then maybe yes on the outside. 

 When the egg cracks from the inside the chicken lives, when the egg crack from the outside the chicken dies, meaning one cannot force anyone to do anything, it has to come by themselves on their own accord.

One day i will make something big because I am big on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in grandiose things instead of being here directing myself in every breathe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I dont necessarily have to make something big for others, but I can definetly make something big for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others how I can affect others instead of how I can affect myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can make change for myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if i come first that's the way to do it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to make movement in others instead of make movement in myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's too late for me 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize understand that as long as there is breath there is opportunity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take breath for granted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am very far from death, when death can come at any moment like a thief in the night

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have time to lose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a bubble around me of inaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I know I have to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in their routine day after day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need memory to function

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am understanding

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard help

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I don't really need help 

'Let go of every addiction and take it seriously to work on myself'

I commit myself to remind myself that I am serious

I commit myself to remind myself that I will not stop until this is done, it is done

I commit myself to remind myself that if others can do it, I can do it as well

I commit myself to remind myself I am the word 'unlimited'

Day 174: Freestyle Self-Forgiveness

Hey ChatGPT introduce my self-forgiveness:

"This text is a collection of self-forgiveness statements aimed at acknowledging fears, limiting beliefs, and emotional patterns. Through this process, the writer takes responsibility for their life and begins releasing dependency, insecurity, and self-judgment, moving toward personal empowerment and self-awareness."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying right now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I am a full responsible human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to want others to go easy on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to fear being left out and homeless 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, understand that I am the key to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the key to myself is outside of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the key to myself is within money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money the object of desire, instead of making myself anew 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to not see, realize, and understand that to be a good communicator I have to communicate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my word 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lazy at pronunciating words

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about what others will think of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the so-called 'others' don't care what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want people to give a fuck about me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand no one gives a fuck

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everything I want is on the other side of my fears, insecurities, and beliefs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am my own enemy and my greatest ally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have a wife or relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I know where to go, and I must do it

Day 173: Drugs as a Crutch

How come some people take drugs and some other people don't? Some people stop drugs and some other people don't stop them anytime? I think drugs are interesting but they are not worth risking your health to. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to experience things with drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that reality is interesting without drugs too

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel cozy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that these things I look for in ubstances are not the answer in substances

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to put excuses to take drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all the things that I look for in drugs I have within

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am missing something 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am incomplete

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to be strong and go without drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to bury  feelings of aloneness with drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take drugs because I am bored 

I forgive myself that I have accepted not myself to put excuses like 'I can take drugs now, it's late and no one will disturb me'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that taking drugs fucks with me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is an insult to those that are with me to take drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as if I am alone

Day 172: Hard on Myself

 

I see I don't really cheer myself up or give myself credit for my achievements like stopping smoking, it's a change for the better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe being hard on myself is healthy or that it works

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to go easy on myself, easy on me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't know everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not in control of fate 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in fate  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do not see, realize and understand that I create my life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do not see, realize and understand that I am not less than others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going back to basics 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot succeed 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to succeed without defining success 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that success is subjective  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand. that I am not my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that no one can tell me what to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others outside of myself to tell me what to do 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately sabotage myself when doing what others told me to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I cannot fail others, I am only failing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck up my relationships by not doing what I said I was going to do. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that if the rewards are for me, the consequences are also for me of my actions

I commit myself to remind myself I am Here with me always

I commit myself to remind myself there is no need to rush

I commit myseld to go easy on myself whenever I am hard on myself 

I commit myself to remind myself to be kind to myself

Day 171: Let Go of Control

If I achieved what I wanted, maybe I would not be here. I would be doing some things that are irrelevant for my life and for the life of others. I am here, I apply myself, I write blogs. Maybe if I had success in some ways that I wanted, I would not be applying myself consistently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cling to everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the outcome of things to be how I want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe things have to be how I want, instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that things, even when they don't go as I planned, can be even better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am not the one to decide what will happen next

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless whenever things don't go as I planned

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that how I am right now is maybe the best way I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without the things that I want, maybe I am better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will never have a family of my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to create a life for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the potential that I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear misery

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will do the best I can wherever I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am all that I have

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not choose always what's best for all and for me, thus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don't control outcomes, I am not in control or it's not the best, while this is not so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to let things be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence from my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to play God by wanting my outcome to be the real one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the most effort doesn't mean the best choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to do a lot of effort if I choose what's best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that only that which is not real stops existing

Day 170: The Wall Inside

The wall inside can be many things. For me it's about limiting beliefs mostly and accepted things without investigating them. Limitations like thinking I'm not worth it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the challenges I have are a present for me so that if I overcome them, I get that present

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to simply work on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself down every day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need more money to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need more studies to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to change my body type to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do something special to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am special

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have a bigger purpose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I do little things is how I will do bigger things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I see will be giving me the most benefit to myself, not money exclusively 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I do my best I will get somewhere

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself as someone that can make it in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can make it in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even try with all my heart to overcome my challenges

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up when I wake up from the bed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself down whenever I don't wake up and stand up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worth it of the good things in life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to suffer

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beat myself up for no reason

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to beat myself up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to explore about myself, keep that which is good and let go of the rest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the phrase, 'investigate everything and keep what's good'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to invest in myself and tools that will help me overcome any addiction and any limitation

Day 169: Change or Not Change

For up until now, I have thought of myself that I do not change. I want change and I think I don't change. 

Well, I have been abstaining from drugs for over a year. That's change, that's something new. So I have to be less hard on myself and acknowledge the positive changes I've made and see that I can make many more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am always changing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that change is not something in the future, but a constant doing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear forgetting myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how much I have changed in recent times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not acknowledge my change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I either change positively im a good way or negatively, either I change through consequence, or I change through choice

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am shit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how much I have changed

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not acknowledge the fact that I've been drug free for over a year

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my self beliefs are not real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am a fuck-up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't and can't change 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be impatient about change 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that progress is made when I think I am not making progress 

I commit myself to be patient and easygoing with myself

I commit myself to remind myself I am always changing either consciously or un-consciously 

I commit myself to direct change to what's best for All starting with what's best for me

Day 168: The Power of No

They say that Google tried to sell the company many many times or many attempts and they didn't sell it so they stuck with it and now it's a giant. 

Today I want to talk about the No's, the no's are what makes one find their way. It avoids the way that they should not go. I think that when we get no's is because there is another way, better way for us. 

And also there is something to learn when we get a no. For example in sales, every time we get a no we have something to improve, something we missed. I think that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be 'allergic to No's'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear no's, to fear rejection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that every rejection I get, I learn and I get stronger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I got a yes every time I want to do something, I would be doing anything instead of what's the best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can learn from every no

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that in learning you have to avoid mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to avoid making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that making mistakes is how I can learn the fastest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe if I don't make mistakes I am doing better, when in fact it's not so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes,  because apparently they are bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge mistakes as bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's better not making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am less if I make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my self-value depends on how many mistakes I make

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in the real world when you make a lot of mistakes you are closer to the goal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe perfection is not making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself space to make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged if I make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do something right the first time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that to improve I need to make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to say

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to do everything alone 

I forgive myself that they have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's being weak when one asks for help from someone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to believe seeking help is being weak

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to not see that the more competitive people have teams

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in a team

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that participating in a team can be good

Day 167: Fear of Being Homeless

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being homeless

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having any support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear suffering

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to both fear remaining a wage slave and homeless

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief I can only be an employee

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can improve myself to do different things to get money from

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough to eat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that a normal so-called job gets most of my time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that with a normal life I will have a very poor retirement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will suffer if I am merely an employee

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I should create my own business

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that without money I will suffer

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this world is cut-throat about money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can change my mindset, to change my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply accept my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have been programmed to lose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to reprogram myself to win

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot get good habits

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will be fat the rest of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I can become fit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not about being worried about money, but about doing something

Day 166: Facing Life in Self-Forgiveness

 Here is a bit of my life in self-forgiveness, my fears, my insecurities and how to build a new life for me free from pointless jobs. How I do it? I don't know. I just know that I can do it one breath at a time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have everything smooth sailing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being poor

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don't have to be far away from home to get money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to suffer necessarily to make money 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe i can only do one type of job

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the opportunity to learn something new or a degree to change careers

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that I am free to do what I want - not without responsibility but I have freedom

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if where I am I am not satisfied, I can change it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot get a job somewhere else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the beginning and the end

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not forced to do anything in this world at all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self-honest with myself that I hate my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take drugs to avoid living, in the life that I hate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe others will think I am taking drugs which I am not since one year

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that drugs gave me companionship and that's one reason why I used them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that now I have the real power to build the life that I really want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want a relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that I have to be patient

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that I have opportunities and I can use them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there's not always and there will not be forever opportunities for myself, maybe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that death doesn't care about my timetables, my schedules, it just arrives

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that time doesn't stop for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have specialness in me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I will become someone relevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't do relevant things, I will become irrelevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself and take drugs in the past to avoid reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest consequences for my drug taking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that my fuck-ups are for me to solve

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that even if it takes time I can overcome consequence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I want another life I have to build it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the attention of others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear this blog will be too short or too long

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to care about others instead of care about myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if everyone cares for themselves first, then everyone is cared for

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that the job where I am at is not the end of the train track for my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I remain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that no matter what happens, no matter how bad it gets, I will stand up for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put as an excuse that I fear something, to not face it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don't fear anything - at all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I can program my life to be the best that it can be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and to believe that I cannot do more in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will not have enough money if I have consequence playing out in my reality

Day 165: Discipline and Balance

Discipline is not banging my head to the wall, although it could be if I had set that as a goal lol, I see that discipline is doing what I said - to me or others - until I'm done. 

I see I didn't fully understand Discipline and it seemed to me it came from the outside, when it has to come 'from within/from me' for Me, as something that I use to complete my goals, commitments and agreements.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot be disciplined

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe discipline is hard

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that discipline is habit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that whatever I allow to do in one day, I allow to do in many

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear boredom if I am disciplined

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that on the other side of discipline is what I really want in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot be disciplined with food

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot go back to be thin

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not discipline myself into being Here at all times aware

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worthy of being realized

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't deserve to have a good life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am sinful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a sinner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to be gentle and easy on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don't have to have wants in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can choose whatever I want to experience in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can decide what I want to do in this life and do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that once I am dead it's too late

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I am so hard on myself that I don't even want to want anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to experience anything in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not explore what it is that I want to experience in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that discipline is to do what I say I was going to do and nothing else 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whatever I commit to do is what I have to do with discipline

Day 164: Lazy Gets Nothing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge what I say. Okay, no judgement, only me and you, here, in this moment, no fluff, all grain.

I have a friend that when he's with me all the time he thinks what can I say that is interesting. He comes up with stuff that to me is boring. So I will not try to come up with anything interesting to you because maybe you will find it boring. So, did you know that who doesn't want to change their life because he thinks he's too fucked up.

is because he's lazy and don't want to rearrange everything inside themself? Because like today I was at work and we work with packages of furniture in... on... on pallets and I was saying to my colleague this pallet is fucked up I need to do something with it,

or change a new one. He said that you are lazy you don't want to change it, from take it apart. 

So it's like in life one has to take it apart, pause, stop for a moment, stop with capital letters and then slowly slowly

deconstruct ourselves, slowly slowly, stop ourselves when there's nothing, you reach the point of nothingness and from here we go up up not in the sense of higher but in the sense of building ourselves the way we want to be and this is what I'm doing with these blogs.

thank you very much

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face my life head on and apply myself in changing myself with the tools available

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am capable of changing myself and so must do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses to not apply myself and change myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear, Missing out on everything on life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be interesting to others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be, Interesting for others instead of being interesting for myself

I commit myself to remind myself that I must make myself interesting for myself only

I commit myself to remind myself that I am with myself always so I Should become interesting for myself not for others

Day 163: Con-ditioned

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself in my daily living. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to diminish myself at all. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to condition myself to anyone else 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be gentle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not go easy on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it will not work if I am not feeling it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't need to have any feeling for me to apply self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thoughts I have about self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the gift that is self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself for real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe resistance to applying self-forgiveness is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it doesn't matter if it feels difficult, I have to apply self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must forgive myself to let go of the past and limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, in the past, to want to be close to people with money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can be the one that makes money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that self-limitations can be in many aspects of self

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am here in every moment of breath, aware, present

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my father is always with me, no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all my loved ones, my grandfather, all are with me at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not honor the support that I have been receiving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as if I don't have support from the hereafter

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to explain myself instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that first of all I have to understand myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as if I am alone when I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the phrase 'everything is known at all times'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear sounding mind washed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that you are brainwashed if you don't apply self-forgiveness and change