Day 158: On Principle

I don't do things for likes, although is an 'ego boost' - best to act on Principle, the principle of what is Best for All, if people like it, good, if not - it does not matter, because not everyone will like it, we have to simply be the majority of people.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for my vlogs and blogs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be liked

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not like myself and look for acceptance and being liked outside of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am okay without recongnition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to accept myself  - all of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dislike myself over the years, instead of nurturing the initial self love I had for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am allright the way I am - with all my flaws

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am enough and do not need validation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be recognized instead of recognizing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise ans understand that even if only one person watch my content, it is worth it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that more views does not mean more quality of the material

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I say the thruth it will not be pretty or acclaimed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is false that I have to get views to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I should share unconditionally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stop if I don't get likes instead of being self-motivated

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I don't need external approval

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I should do what I see is Best for All and that's it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not enough

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not valid

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give up on loving myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am worth loving

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe it is valid to hate myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am not alone

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I must stop hating myself

I commit myself to investigate the reasons why I don't love myself and stop them

I commit myself to remind myself that I am lovable

I commit myself to remind myself I have to love myself first - before loving anyone else

Day 62: Self-Traps

First of all, apologies for having missed so many days. Today I went to the terrace of the building where I live and forgot to put the door locked in a way that it won't close once I am out, so I was locked in the terrace because I forgot to do that. In a moment, the door was shut and I was out - and had to call a neighbour to open the door to get out. This reminded me that I can become 'fucked up by my own design/creation' where I find myself in a position that I 'wasn't intending to happen' but happened - in this case by a distraction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss so many days of writting and supporting myself with self forgiveness, not supporting myself in doing this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up myself in not supporting myself daily effectively - giving up self responsibility and creating unnecesary consequence for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect myself through not honouring myself in supporting myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that I must act in ways to support myself to take responsibility for myself becuse unless I do it noone will do it for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trick and deceive myself into giving up instead of finding ways to take on the tasks to take responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to see and know how I will be doing in the future instead of working day by day in ways that are proven to be self supportive like daily writting and self forgiveness as in the course desteni I process and journey to life blogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept as 'normal' to not take responsibility for myself - instead of seeing the common sense that it is unacceptable and will only lead to undesired consequence and pain and suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider myself and all others in not supporting myself unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the opportunity that I have with the support available in Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe 'resistance' to act in ways that are proven self supportive such as writing and self forgiveness and practical application as described by Desteni - is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that self interest is not a way but a trap in the belief that there is free choice to not act in ways that are Best for All which is taking responsibility for oneself unconditionally and expand to the world from this, to solve the current problems faced on Earth such as porverty, starvation, war and other abuse going on daily.

I commit myself to unconditionally walk the tools proven to be effective in self-change in taking responsibility for my accepted and allowed limitations such as procrastination, lazyness and the giving up of self-responsibility that goes along with living on Earth.

An invitation to support yourself from self limitation to self-discovery:

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