Day 129: Work

• Do you judge work as dull, boring even as sabotage of some kind? I did. I found this limits me extensively because then I don't work for myself! Work can be and is self support, by applying the discipline I put into work into working for myself on my projects for example is the solution to get out of laziness and start supporting myself better.

I forgive mysef that I have accepted and allowed myself to see work as dull

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see work for what it is = self support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself with the belief that work is self sabotage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that supporting myself with work is cool indeed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise or understand how work is simply an expression of self support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see work as something I merely did for a third party

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the empoloyee mentality

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see work as an investment in myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by believing I have to work for someone else and that is the defintion of work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that working for myself is also work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can work to lift myself up both finantially and also expand as a being

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that whenever I work I am supporting myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see work as self support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see work as dull and draining

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whenever I work I am expanding myself as I am expanding myself in everything I do that supports myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that work is not enslavement whenever is supportive to get to the next step

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see work as an stepping stone in self support

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that I can indeed work and support myself at the same time while I do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I see work as enslavement, dull and sabotage I will never be able to work for myself to improve my situation and that of others as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am actually good at working

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can put the discipline I apply in so called 'work' to work for myself to support myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to transfer the discipline I put into work into all areas of my life

I  forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit the discipline I put into work into work-for-another only

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can take grains of truth in how I express myself and apply it into the whole of my living

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that the solutions that I live in some areas of my life I can apply to problems of some other areas of my life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to unlock my true potential by interwining as opening the gates that separate what I do best in some areas of my life so that my whole living is improved

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I am facing a problem I might have faced the same problem and solved it already so only have to take some application such as how I work into another point that needs correction

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can grind

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have grit and thus can apply it in all areas of my life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that if I live a limited life is because I don't allow myself to see myself for who I really am

Day 128: ConceptIOn

Initially wanted to name this blog 'Pregnant' but I do not want to be misleading. I am not in a relationship where she is pregnant, no, as I am writing this I am riding to work and I was semi asleep when a strong sense of 'I am pregnant and I am not doing anything' arose. So I asked myself, where is this coming from? And it is funny because I have put myself a timeline of 8 - 9 months to start my business. But the business is not what came up when I asked myself the question of where this came from, it was more about Me - where I am in the process of letting go of the old me to, yes, birth a new me so to speak - the business is merely a side effect of my new direction. The part 'and I am doing anything' arose because with me right now I have a laptop and about two hours, and was not doing anything useful with it. So this blog to mark the start of my newfound care for myself. 'Concept I On' - or 'I am on a concept' as this all is still bsut a blueprint that I have to live and even the blueprint is in the design stage.

Self Forgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value myself as my time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to utilise all the available time to support myself and train.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that if I don't support myself effectively I will not be able to go through with my plans.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I need all the time I can to support myself - so use all available free time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that for something to move I have to push, or pull, for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can enjoy the process of creation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am enjoyment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that with enjoyment things are easier even if hard.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the hidden ingredient in hard as enjoyment

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to express myself as myself in what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread doing anything I deem as hard as I judge and believe it has to be painful, painstaking and that I won't enjoy it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can enjoy doing something that is so called hard to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can live the word focus.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can live the word direct.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I will not stop for anything in my process of change, so may as well enjoy what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don't have to fight something that I deemed as hard, simply is something that requires focus, being direct, and discipline - it does not mean that I will suffer or that I will take pain from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myelf to fear/resist doing stuff that I judged as hard as in my definition of hard there was pain, suffering and this is not how it is as hard merely means requiring focus, direction and discipline.

Day 127: Hey, I am Here

 

Do I have your undivided attention? Ok now, I want to recap and have a look at principled living, what are the principles I commit myself to live by. The first one is: 1. Realising and living my utmost potential

I see this one principle as the question, am I doing all that I can to realise and live my utmost potential? This question is twofold, one is investigating what I am capable of and the second living the change. 

I can realise my utmost potential by self-investigating and walking with the tools provided by Desteni, with DIP Lite and Pro and with utilizing TechnoTutor.

I can live my utmost potential by living my realisations, applying them breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not able to investigate myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate what I am capable of as my utmost potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not se I can be and become much more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worth of my utmost potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I am worth of my utmost potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that merely not doing anything will solve anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am directly responsible for myself and my world as without my participation everything would be different.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am here to be and become that witch is Best for All.

Day 126: Stability as Matter

Lately I have allowed myself to have mood swings without realising that I am Matter - and that's what matters - Stability as Matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape this reality.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to direct my reality as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate standing up for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am here no matter what goes on in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that most that happens in my mind is bullshit.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that it is not important what goes on in the mind in terms of giving it importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to believe that I am my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my feelings.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I am more than my thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to celebrate that I am here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that no matter what, I am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that no matter what goes up in my head I remain here stable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand the stability in matter.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am mood swings.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that no matter what I am still here stable infinitely.

Day 125: Enlightenment

For quite some years I thought there is some type of enlightenment that one can experience. Now I have realized it is not real, with a simple question: How do you think your perception would change if you 'become enlightened'? 

It is this simple, a light won't shine on you or you won't be more shiny.

In other words nothing will happen other than self change. Nothing in the outer nor how you will experience the world, of course if you change yourself your outer world may change, or it may not. In any case nothing magical will happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe enlightenment exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see enlightenment is a deception

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that waiting for something external to happen is a deception and a mistake

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe something such as enlightenment exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ground myself here and see that this world is all that exists

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for enlightenment to happen to me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not becoming enlightened

Day 124: Jealousy

Jealousy: Feeling of unhappiness and anger because someone has something or someone that you want

Related to relationships when you have to let go of someone because he or she loves someone else, it's the contrary of easiness of letting go of that person you were with.

Books by Osho have been helpful to me in learning about this letting go and not going into jealousy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into jealousy whenever my partner wants to move on with someone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that jealousy is poison

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to give freedom the same I would want to have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe jealousy is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see jealousy is not me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see it is easy to let go of someone you love if you really love them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my insecurities manifest jealousy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept jealousy instead of investigating where it comes from

I commit myself to let go of jealousy

I commit myself to let go of and not participate in jealousy

I commit myself to give freedom to my partner as I would like to myself

I commit myself to investigate any jealousy that might come up to see where it comes from

Day 123: Enjoy Yourself

Have you enjoyed yourself today? I have found I can enjoy what I do as well as take some time for myself to do something I enjoy, and it is fine. Something creative I enjoy, sports and more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take some time for myself daily to do something I enjoy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can take some time for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live the word enjoyment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not explore what I enjoy doing in my time off

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my life too seriously

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I can enjoy life more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to motivate myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how my life can be much more than what it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by not doing anything I enjoy supposedly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not learn to enjoy no matter what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe others have to amuse me instead of finding something I can do to enjoy myself

I commit myself to research what I enjoy to do more of it with measure

I commit myself to take reasonable time for myself to do stuff I enjoy doing