Day 175: I Will Make Something Big

'I will make something big' maybe it's only me but I think everyone has this point inside themselves where they think that they will make something big, and it's cool because it doesn't have to be outside of themselves it can be on the inside and then maybe yes on the outside. 

 When the egg cracks from the inside the chicken lives, when the egg crack from the outside the chicken dies, meaning one cannot force anyone to do anything, it has to come by themselves on their own accord.

One day i will make something big because I am big on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in grandiose things instead of being here directing myself in every breathe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I dont necessarily have to make something big for others, but I can definetly make something big for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others how I can affect others instead of how I can affect myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can make change for myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if i come first that's the way to do it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to make movement in others instead of make movement in myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's too late for me 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize understand that as long as there is breath there is opportunity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take breath for granted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am very far from death, when death can come at any moment like a thief in the night

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have time to lose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a bubble around me of inaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I know I have to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in their routine day after day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need memory to function

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am understanding

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard help

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I don't really need help 

'Let go of every addiction and take it seriously to work on myself'

I commit myself to remind myself that I am serious

I commit myself to remind myself that I will not stop until this is done, it is done

I commit myself to remind myself that if others can do it, I can do it as well

I commit myself to remind myself I am the word 'unlimited'

Day 174: Freestyle Self-Forgiveness

Hey ChatGPT introduce my self-forgiveness:

"This text is a collection of self-forgiveness statements aimed at acknowledging fears, limiting beliefs, and emotional patterns. Through this process, the writer takes responsibility for their life and begins releasing dependency, insecurity, and self-judgment, moving toward personal empowerment and self-awareness."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying right now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I am a full responsible human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to want others to go easy on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to fear being left out and homeless 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, understand that I am the key to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the key to myself is outside of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the key to myself is within money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money the object of desire, instead of making myself anew 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to not see, realize, and understand that to be a good communicator I have to communicate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my word 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lazy at pronunciating words

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about what others will think of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the so-called 'others' don't care what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want people to give a fuck about me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand no one gives a fuck

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everything I want is on the other side of my fears, insecurities, and beliefs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am my own enemy and my greatest ally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have a wife or relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I know where to go, and I must do it

Day 173: Drugs as a Crutch

How come some people take drugs and some other people don't? Some people stop drugs and some other people don't stop them anytime? I think drugs are interesting but they are not worth risking your health to. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to experience things with drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that reality is interesting without drugs too

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel cozy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that these things I look for in ubstances are not the answer in substances

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to put excuses to take drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all the things that I look for in drugs I have within

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am missing something 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am incomplete

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to be strong and go without drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to bury  feelings of aloneness with drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take drugs because I am bored 

I forgive myself that I have accepted not myself to put excuses like 'I can take drugs now, it's late and no one will disturb me'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that taking drugs fucks with me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is an insult to those that are with me to take drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as if I am alone

Day 172: Hard on Myself

 

I see I don't really cheer myself up or give myself credit for my achievements like stopping smoking, it's a change for the better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe being hard on myself is healthy or that it works

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to go easy on myself, easy on me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't know everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not in control of fate 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in fate  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do not see, realize and understand that I create my life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do not see, realize and understand that I am not less than others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going back to basics 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot succeed 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to succeed without defining success 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that success is subjective  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand. that I am not my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that no one can tell me what to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others outside of myself to tell me what to do 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately sabotage myself when doing what others told me to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I cannot fail others, I am only failing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck up my relationships by not doing what I said I was going to do. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that if the rewards are for me, the consequences are also for me of my actions

I commit myself to remind myself I am Here with me always

I commit myself to remind myself there is no need to rush

I commit myseld to go easy on myself whenever I am hard on myself 

I commit myself to remind myself to be kind to myself

Day 171: Let Go of Control

If I achieved what I wanted, maybe I would not be here. I would be doing some things that are irrelevant for my life and for the life of others. I am here, I apply myself, I write blogs. Maybe if I had success in some ways that I wanted, I would not be applying myself consistently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cling to everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the outcome of things to be how I want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe things have to be how I want, instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that things, even when they don't go as I planned, can be even better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am not the one to decide what will happen next

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless whenever things don't go as I planned

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that how I am right now is maybe the best way I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without the things that I want, maybe I am better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will never have a family of my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to create a life for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the potential that I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear misery

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will do the best I can wherever I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am all that I have

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not choose always what's best for all and for me, thus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don't control outcomes, I am not in control or it's not the best, while this is not so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to let things be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence from my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to play God by wanting my outcome to be the real one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the most effort doesn't mean the best choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to do a lot of effort if I choose what's best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that only that which is not real stops existing

Day 170: The Wall Inside

The wall inside can be many things. For me it's about limiting beliefs mostly and accepted things without investigating them. Limitations like thinking I'm not worth it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the challenges I have are a present for me so that if I overcome them, I get that present

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to simply work on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself down every day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need more money to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need more studies to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to change my body type to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do something special to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am special

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have a bigger purpose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I do little things is how I will do bigger things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I see will be giving me the most benefit to myself, not money exclusively 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I do my best I will get somewhere

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself as someone that can make it in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can make it in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even try with all my heart to overcome my challenges

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up when I wake up from the bed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself down whenever I don't wake up and stand up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worth it of the good things in life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to suffer

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beat myself up for no reason

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to beat myself up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to explore about myself, keep that which is good and let go of the rest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the phrase, 'investigate everything and keep what's good'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to invest in myself and tools that will help me overcome any addiction and any limitation

Day 169: Change or Not Change

For up until now, I have thought of myself that I do not change. I want change and I think I don't change. 

Well, I have been abstaining from drugs for over a year. That's change, that's something new. So I have to be less hard on myself and acknowledge the positive changes I've made and see that I can make many more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am always changing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that change is not something in the future, but a constant doing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear forgetting myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how much I have changed in recent times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not acknowledge my change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I either change positively im a good way or negatively, either I change through consequence, or I change through choice

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am shit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how much I have changed

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not acknowledge the fact that I've been drug free for over a year

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my self beliefs are not real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am a fuck-up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't and can't change 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be impatient about change 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that progress is made when I think I am not making progress 

I commit myself to be patient and easygoing with myself

I commit myself to remind myself I am always changing either consciously or un-consciously 

I commit myself to direct change to what's best for All starting with what's best for me