I have
experienced how the starting point of energy in doing the blogs, energy that I
experienced as competition, dropped. In not having more energy from the
mind-competition then the question of who I am emerges as I have the
opportunity to continue without energy and walk or give up. Giving up is only
an illusion because I have to inevitably face myself - and so I can chose to
continue living in the illusion of energy and giving up or walk reality - to
walk the blogs no matter what from self-directive starting point instead of
energy motivated.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write the blogs from the
starting point of competition and wanting to arrive to the goal instead of
remaining here as breath without participating in energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the
experience of energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need the
experience of energy and rushing to be able to move myself to write.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to move only
within energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that giving up is
real.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I am
does not consist of energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don't have
the experience of energy I cannot move myself to get things done.
I forgive
myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by
motivating myself through energy to do blogs I am limiting myself because I am
subjecting my self-movement to energy that is not sustainable and runs-out.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move only if I have the
experience of energy.
I forgive
myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how limitied I
allow myself to be and become when I only move through energy.
I forgive
myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to move within the starting
point of myself as what is best for all.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the experience of
energy is real and use it as self-gratification to 'feel good'.
I forgive
myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the feeling of
feeling good in participation of energy from the mind is not real and that it
is a polarity and not stable and that it cannot last.
I forgive
myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop the illusion of
energy and walk within common sense .
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up self direction for
energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the consequences
of giving up self direction for energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to disregard myself in giving up to energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can 'run out'
of energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I only need
breath to move myself and that the believe that I need some experience to move
myself is false.
I commit
myself to move myself within breath without subjecting myself to energy
experience in order to get things done.
I commit
myself to push trough the 'energy drops' that I may experience in the
realization that I do not consist of energy.
I commit
myself to prove to myself that I am not energy through walking through what I
have to do in common sense disregarding all apathy and other experience of
rejection and resistance.
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