Day 164: Lazy Gets Nothing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge what I say. Okay, no judgement, only me and you, here, in this moment, no fluff, all grain.

I have a friend that when he's with me all the time he thinks what can I say that is interesting. He comes up with stuff that to me is boring. So I will not try to come up with anything interesting to you because maybe you will find it boring. So, did you know that who doesn't want to change their life because he thinks he's too fucked up.

is because he's lazy and don't want to rearrange everything inside themself? Because like today I was at work and we work with packages of furniture in... on... on pallets and I was saying to my colleague this pallet is fucked up I need to do something with it,

or change a new one. He said that you are lazy you don't want to change it, from take it apart. 

So it's like in life one has to take it apart, pause, stop for a moment, stop with capital letters and then slowly slowly

deconstruct ourselves, slowly slowly, stop ourselves when there's nothing, you reach the point of nothingness and from here we go up up not in the sense of higher but in the sense of building ourselves the way we want to be and this is what I'm doing with these blogs.

thank you very much

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face my life head on and apply myself in changing myself with the tools available

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am capable of changing myself and so must do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses to not apply myself and change myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear, Missing out on everything on life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be interesting to others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be, Interesting for others instead of being interesting for myself

I commit myself to remind myself that I must make myself interesting for myself only

I commit myself to remind myself that I am with myself always so I Should become interesting for myself not for others