Day 172: Hard on Myself

 

I see I don't really cheer myself up or give myself credit for my achievements like stopping smoking, it's a change for the better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe being hard on myself is healthy or that it works

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to go easy on myself, easy on me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't know everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not in control of fate 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in fate  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do not see, realize and understand that I create my life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do not see, realize and understand that I am not less than others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going back to basics 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot succeed 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to succeed without defining success 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that success is subjective  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand. that I am not my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that no one can tell me what to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others outside of myself to tell me what to do 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately sabotage myself when doing what others told me to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I cannot fail others, I am only failing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck up my relationships by not doing what I said I was going to do. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that if the rewards are for me, the consequences are also for me of my actions

I commit myself to remind myself I am Here with me always

I commit myself to remind myself there is no need to rush

I commit myseld to go easy on myself whenever I am hard on myself 

I commit myself to remind myself to be kind to myself