Day 181: Past Giving Up

 Today at work I wanted to give up, in a moment it seemed that something break, I was ready to stop working.

If I gave up, I know the result, I lose my job and go back home, but, if I continue?

 If I choose this other path of keep going, this route I don't know where it will lead me, and to me its more interesting

So I continued the work and it came up better that I expected and the production numbers were fine

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to give up at the workplace

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see there is a point past giving up

I commit myself to remind mysel I should always take the route that is best and let go of the past and never utilize excuses to perform inadequately

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand there is nothing wrong in manual work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider giving up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand common sense which dictates that one must do what's best for all and that is it

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to stop doing work before I am done

I commit myself to remind myself I don't finish when I want, I finish when I'm done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I can build a good career at my job

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that comfort is not expression

I commit myself to remind myself the answer lies past giving up - I keep going

I commit myself to remind myself that it is always only about choosing the old or the new

I commit myself to rend myself I will never be satisfied with my life doing what I've always done - so I can choose, new beggining not repeating the past - or suffering

I commit myself to remind myself that even when I give up I immediately continue and thus open the next door 'past giving up' and keep going