Day 149: Normal, Good Life

I know who I am, I stand up for the abused whenever I have found myself in a situation where there was someone being abused, it is normal to me.

I know that I stand up for the abused because I have seen this in real time of myself. It is normal to me.

I deserve to do all that I want in my life because I know whenever there is abuse I stand up for it/the abused.

Life has to be easy for me and everyone else, natural like breathing.

We all have to thrive and it has to come natural to us, like breathing.

We all have to find that which we enjoy and do it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am a cool guy because I stand up for the abused.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see my value that I stand up for the abused.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I deserve to live a good life because I care.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I should live a good life because I care for people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself instead of considering myself as worthy of a worthy Life.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am worthy of a worthy life.

I commit myself to remind myself that I have to live a worthy life because I care.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am intolerant to abuse whenever I come face to face with it.

Day 148: Who am I

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to live the word perfection instead of doing my best in every breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be perfect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that perfection does not exist as it is dependant on every individual perspective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be able to do everything perfectly instead of doing my best in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to attract attention of others by doing something unusual/bold

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don't need to do anything outrageous in order to have attention from others, they can simply hear me for who I am 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do something outrageous or dangerous to get attention from others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to not see that I am important with or without attention form others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to want attention from others

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed mysel to see that I can get attention for who I am not for what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that who I am is more important than what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not enough and therefore want to get attention for what I do/have instead of for who I am

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look at who I am, instead looking at what I do or  have

Day 147: Judge Not

 Yesterday I was approached by a friend, telling me that another friend had scared him and I, instead of reassuring that it was all fine by this friend that scared another one, I said that this friend that scared another one is 'strange' and giving some examples more-- thus judging in all its glory. Today I had to ask for forgiveness from this friend, also in presence of the first friend that came to me for help with this friend. All in all, judging is not cool because the person that is judged cannot defend themselves. Thus you are doing a trial without giving the opportunity of the judged to defend themselves. I would hate to have a friend near me that when other people ask him about my behaviour, he simply says that Ruben is strange -- not cool. It is simply to remind oneself that we should not judge at all, as life is difficult enough and however one decides to act in Life we, from the outside, cannot possibly know why of the way he acted like that. And in fact, in this example, judging someone as strange is detrimental to the relationship. From now on I will only talk well/positive of people or simply not talk unless they are present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my friend as strange when approached by another one that he had scared.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to jump to judging instead of 'judge not - lest ye be judged'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to jump to conclusions with my friend by judging him and his behaviour

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my friend instead of being here as breath and examine the situation with this other friend that said that was scared

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to judge not unless I be judged

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the dynamics of the friendship whenever I decide to judge a friend with another friend present -- which is detrimental to the relationship with the first friend.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that judging persons/friends is very detrimental to any possible relationship that can form between me and them.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that judgement of people is very detrimental of the relationship at all levels.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I judge someone for example as strange because of their way of living - I am separating myself from them and there is no possible friendship to be sustained between us as I separate myself from them within and as the judgement.

Day 146: Success

 I am the most relevant person to myself, and now is the time that matters the most to myself, now that I am alive and living: What do I give more importance to, money? or Life?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more importance to money other than Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe if I don't have money I will cease to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a job and thus not have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being homeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a job.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is of no use to fear not having a job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more importance to money over Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that me being broke is irrelevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to see a bigger picture than me being broke or otherwise it is all I will ever be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe broke is all I can ever be.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see further than my monetary value

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that my income is not a representation of myself.

Day 144: Mad House

 In this mad house, where they try to ply me with coffee and cigarettes, is where the revolution starts. I am not happy with only coffee and cigs you see? I can see I can do much more and so I will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only do so much to influence change as onenes and equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can do much more to influence change as oneness and equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not sure of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I give myself permission to stand up for myself - no one will

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am ready to stand up for myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself permission to stand up for myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am ready to stand up for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need a mad house 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the injustices of some placements of people in this mad house being unjust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand how the system is rigged

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the system of equality is impossible with unjust rules at the mad house

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand how the rules of the mad house are unjust, placing people here in situations of helplessness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand what I can do for equality in any situation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not mad but are ruled by mad house rules

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I stop this madness - mad house rules will continue to apply to rule over people deemed as mad unjustly.

Day 142: Act Now

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for something to act, as in poverty or riches

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that waiting is waiting and there is no excuse for it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the simplicity of everyone being supported to have their best life possible

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses to not act in every moment in a way that is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I act and we act nothing will be done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless we do something nothing will be done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the system that is running will continue to run until annihilation of all possible life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that we can unite to get change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that waiting is the root cause of change NOT happening

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, that the fact that I have a job doesn’t make me protected from an uncertain future, as many have at the present moment

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that unless I stand as an example of what is possible many will not be able to stand up because of it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that many will not be able to stand up if I fail to stand up in every moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am one, yet everyone finds themselves at the same position, being one, so it is only natural that if I stand up many other ones will do the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can do so much that I yet don’t know because I have not put myself to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my creative potential because I have not yet put myself to do all that I can for equality

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am capable of so much more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to act whenever I see I can act, without postponing or waiting

Day 140: Sacrifice = Investment

Sacrifice is in reality an investment. Giving up something for something better. We should all consider investing in Equality for All, as it has the best ROI (return on investment) possible, ever, for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that sacrifice is needed in order to obtain anything of value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear sacrifice believing that I will not get anything in return if I do sacrifice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to make sure I get something in return BEFORE I make the sacrifice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that sacrifices have to be unconditional for them to work.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the fact that a sacrifice is unconditional is because results are never guaranteed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want guaranteed results.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that nothing in this life is guaranteed, except death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I understand how sacrifice works = I will not see that it is in fact a simple investment

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to decide to invest in Life and Equality for all - and Equal Rights

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undertand that the best investment there is = is Equality for All

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that sacrifice is another word for investment, they are interchangeable words

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my investment for Equality will not have returns - instead of investing unconditionally - as I see it is the only possible way.

Day 139: Effort Understood

What is effort? When I dont know how to do something, it takes a process to learn it, it can take effort - and when I know how to do something, doing it can also take effort. Some things like play, lets say using a unicycle, it takes effort to learn, but if I enjoy it then it doesnt look like effort, so it all boils down on if I want to do something or if I do it because of survival for example, like a job. Changing the world will take effort, of course, but even the butterfly in its metamorphosis, that takes effort, yet it is inevitable and vital that it takes place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear effort, doing effort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that everything takes effort that is worth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the effort that my physical body does every breath to keep me alive.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is worth it to put effort to change myself and the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that repetition as effort is needed sometimes, many times, to produce a result

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that consistency is needed in order to produce a result, which takes effort.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that consistency is key

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the domino effect is real

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that movement it is not seen in the domino effect while the pieces are being placed and only in the end you can see movement when one piece is pushed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the usefulness in the domino effect, where pieces can push other pieces up to a half bigger than them, in a geometrical progression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am in fact a piece on a domino effect-like situation

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I push, as in a piece of the domino that is pushed - there will be no movement of the domino pieces

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I stand for what is best for all, me and many other individuals will not stand because of it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being an example is so important because without it nothing is possible

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid effort, not seeing, realising and understanding that in doing that I am avoiding reward as result

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge effort as difficult

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to appreciate the effort that nature does to keep this planet alive and the effort that humans have to do that are in poverty to survive

I commit myself to make an effort in reminding myself that everyone and everything is making an effort on this Earth  -- to make an effort for what is Best for All on Earth

I commit myself to remind myself that any effort that I do - is equally done by many other parts of the Earth system and inhabitants

I commit myself to show that any effort that one does is not more or less but Equal to Lifes effort to thrive on this planet

I commit myself to remind myself that I simply have to join in the Lifes effort by doing my part