Day 159: Overcoming Resistance and Fear

 

 I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear never being able to overcome my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not alone

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear resistance

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I have to be okay with experiencing resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undrestand that resistance does not mean impossibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand  that resistance is the compass that indicates where should I go

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to respond to resistance with avoidance instead of application/facing resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to be grateful to resistance as it show me where to go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that fear is an illusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for fear instead of facing fear head on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am capable of facing my fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can act despite fear

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am more than capable to face and overcome resistance and fear by acting despite of it all

I commit myself to remind myself that my resistances show me the way to go

I commit myself to remind myself that I should go where I resist

I commit myself to show myself that fear is an illusion

I commit myself to show myself I can go where I resist

Day 100: A New Day

3 months ago I was writing the post for the day 99, today I was about to write a new post and saw that I must continue with the big 3 digit number post. The post number 100 is a good opportunity to review my Journey to Life so far, but this is not how I expected day 100 to be. One does not plan to not write, or at least it was not my plan. The last 3 months I started university and used this as an excuse to not write. It is not that I did not have the time. I was hinding from myself - wich I can't really do - how could I hide from myself? lol I can't escape from me.

 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to hide from myself with the justification of having to study, even if I know I have time for both.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let time go by without directing myself to write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can hide from myself in not moving myself to write.

Whenever I see that I want to hide from myself by utilizing excuses to not write, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I can't run/escape from myself/self responsibility, so I take myself back Here and assist/support myself in writing when/as possible in self honesty.

Whenever I see that I am 'letting time go' without directing myself, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I must take decisions to move myself to support myself because no one is going to or can do it but myself, and within the realization that once time goes by I cannot take it back.

I commit myself to direct myself whenever I 'catch me' wasting time.

I commit myself to keep walking my process for me in writing whenever/as I am able to within my participation in my studies.