Day 182: Start Again

Failed? Start again - or go 'back to basics' is also the expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hate myself for not doing what I think I should do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am doing a lot by working full time and I should not be hard on myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I don't have to be pushed around even by me /  not by me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself for past mistakes

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to accept the past and let it go

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand failing is part of getting up

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I will only be miserable if I think I am miserable

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I don't have to live up to my expectations in a single day - but instead have patience

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am fine even with unmet expectations

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand it is not about meeting expectations but removing expectations

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be dissatisfied because of unmet expectations

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have high expectations of myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I don't even have investigated where this expectations come from before accepting them

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am changing one day at a time

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am  enough

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand life is not about expecting but walking 

Day 181: Past Giving Up

 Today at work I wanted to give up, in a moment it seemed that something break, I was ready to stop working.

If I gave up, I know the result, I lose my job and go back home, but, if I continue?

 If I choose this other path of keep going, this route I don't know where it will lead me, and to me its more interesting

So I continued the work and it came up better that I expected and the production numbers were fine

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to give up at the workplace

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see there is a point past giving up

I commit myself to remind mysel I should always take the route that is best and let go of the past and never utilize excuses to perform inadequately

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand there is nothing wrong in manual work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider giving up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand common sense which dictates that one must do what's best for all and that is it

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to stop doing work before I am done

I commit myself to remind myself I don't finish when I want, I finish when I'm done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I can build a good career at my job

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that comfort is not expression

I commit myself to remind myself the answer lies past giving up - I keep going

I commit myself to remind myself that it is always only about choosing the old or the new

I commit myself to rend myself I will never be satisfied with my life doing what I've always done - so I can choose, new beggining not repeating the past - or suffering

I commit myself to remind myself that even when I give up I immediately continue and thus open the next door 'past giving up' and keep going

Day 180: Complex Subjects

Facing/studying complex subjects I should fear not, for I can take it in bite sized portions and use tools to help me in learning it. Recently I've been studying a vast subject and have been a bit discouraged by slow progress, I see I don't have to judge my progress and instead build on the building blocks of the subject until I have achieved mastery of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to learn L in a day

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that anything of worth needs careful study

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I must be comfortable with discomfort

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that complexity becomes easy with sustained attention

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not 'having what it takes' to learn complex subjects

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself learning L

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am capable of learning anything

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I already have patience enough to Learn anything

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have the tools to learn anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is simple to learn something

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to learn L without dedication

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe things must be available instantly like fast food

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see the value in learning things that take time to master

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am more patient than I think

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to work my job if I study into the night

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am ready to learn anything

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that wether I believe I am ready or not I am both correct

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I do everything totally there is no fail possible

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold back when 'doing things'

I commit myself to remind myself I can learn anything

I commit myself to remind myself everything is possible

I commit myself to remind myself 'impossible' is I'm Possible

Day 179: See Something? Say Something

 This world is not all that it can be. There is a lot of suffering and no one is exempt from homelessness. Once you are homeless it is too late. Most pepole don't have a safety net and can easely become homeless in a 'bad turn of events'. In every big city there is homelessness and it is not okay.

We 'are trained' to turn a blind eye. I visited Bucharest and there were homeless people, I'd gladly help them all but it is a systemic problem and I don't have the funds to do it myself. The system says 'ignore the homeless' and when it is your turn to be homeless, guess what? You are ignored.

It is vital for everyone on Earth to change the system to one that uplifts everyone, and the ultra rich will need to 'tone it down' -- we can raise the level of wealth for all to live a 'millionlaire' level of comfort and freedom, just not 'ultra rich' 'billionaire' status, thats not sustainable.

EMS Equal Money System, I'm one vote for it. 

'The Equal Money System is a New Worldwide system as a solution to provide All human beings with resources to Live an Equal and Dignified life. This System will be a first step in the political and democratic agenda of the Equal Life Party Worldwide'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no solution for homelessness eventhough I can see there are enough resoruces on Earth for everyone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that homelessness is a result of the current money sytem and it can be change into an EMS

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn a blind eye when I see a homeless person

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how money create castes as in levels for people to live out, with homelessness at the bottom and billionaire status at the top -- not Equal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am a valuable member of society in the degree that I work on myself to change it to what's Best for All

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the sytem trule does not care about me, only in the measure that I can get money and when I can't, the system chews me up and spits me out as homeless

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow blindly the sytem precepts of get a job make money and forget about everything else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the cost of me living 'my life' and 'that's it' as that creates the continuation of the system as it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to change others to change the sytem instead of seeing, realising and understanding I have to change myself and thus be an example - that's it

178: God & Me

If you cannot find something it means that you are that something and when you hear this phrase you think maybe about God, no one can find him therefore we are all God and this carries a big responsibility because we literally shape the way the Earth is and its problems

There are no problems, there are only solutions

The solution is an equal money system where everyone is supported

And on an individual level I can change my life at any given point when I am tired of the way I have been so called manifesting or creating a life that I don’t like for myself, I can change it

So 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my life has to be or go the way it has been going

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct myself to continue the way of life I have without questioning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have zest for life, to not be anticipating good things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I can have, be and become whatever I want in this life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see and realize and understand the gift that I have been given of money in the form of a paycheck in the form of a work so that i can develop myself in any way I want 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I don’t have to be a wage slave all my life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I am not who I was - who I have always been, and I am not anyone new also - I am the one that has been here all the way along and will be after I die

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that death will easy my life instead of seeing that my life is actually very easy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that creating my life means being uncomfortable at points

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being god means having a lot of responsibility 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of responsibility or avoid it, try to avoid it 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can lose myself in something I can do - when this is impossible 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use drugs in the past to not face myself

 I forgive myself that i have accepted on myself to be pessimistic about myself and my life 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have the marvel of marvels on Earth which is a human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my physical body, and not properly take care of it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that change is inevitable - change is what it is what is going on - but I can direct change to be the best possible for Me and for All

Day 176: I’m Possible

I don't feel like writing. I don't feel like making a blog. But I don't feel like giving up also, which is stronger than this. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am stronger than giving up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that giving up is not an option

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that anything is possible 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that impossible means ‘I'm possible’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that, it doesn't matter how difficult it gets, I will never give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am enough to write a blog a day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that unless I push myself to something it won't be done automatically

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that everything is possible 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my options are limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not think big

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am big

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that whether I think I am big or I think I am small, I am right

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself. to fear pain in dying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is pain in dying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have endured probably more pain in life than I will in death

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that one thing I will be proud of when I die is if I didn't ever give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I cannot help everyone before I help myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that maybe in helping others I will lose myself and then everyone's fucked because I cannot help everyone, I have to help myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to help others instead of helping myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that help is only possible if I assist myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the blog will not be good enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that as long as it supports me it's good enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there's no enemies, only self to be directed 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there's no fear that can stop me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being unimportant

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be important

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be relevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not treat myself as relevant and important to myself, and want it from others

Day 175: I Will Make Something Big

'I will make something big' maybe it's only me but I think everyone has this point inside themselves where they think that they will make something big, and it's cool because it doesn't have to be outside of themselves it can be on the inside and then maybe yes on the outside. 

 When the egg cracks from the inside the chicken lives, when the egg crack from the outside the chicken dies, meaning one cannot force anyone to do anything, it has to come by themselves on their own accord.

One day i will make something big because I am big on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in grandiose things instead of being here directing myself in every breathe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I dont necessarily have to make something big for others, but I can definetly make something big for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others how I can affect others instead of how I can affect myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can make change for myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if i come first that's the way to do it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to make movement in others instead of make movement in myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's too late for me 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize understand that as long as there is breath there is opportunity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take breath for granted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am very far from death, when death can come at any moment like a thief in the night

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have time to lose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a bubble around me of inaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I know I have to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in their routine day after day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need memory to function

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am understanding

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard help

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I don't really need help 

'Let go of every addiction and take it seriously to work on myself'

I commit myself to remind myself that I am serious

I commit myself to remind myself that I will not stop until this is done, it is done

I commit myself to remind myself that if others can do it, I can do it as well

I commit myself to remind myself I am the word 'unlimited'

Day 174: Freestyle Self-Forgiveness

Hey ChatGPT introduce my self-forgiveness:

"This text is a collection of self-forgiveness statements aimed at acknowledging fears, limiting beliefs, and emotional patterns. Through this process, the writer takes responsibility for their life and begins releasing dependency, insecurity, and self-judgment, moving toward personal empowerment and self-awareness."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying right now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I am a full responsible human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to want others to go easy on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to fear being left out and homeless 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, understand that I am the key to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the key to myself is outside of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the key to myself is within money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money the object of desire, instead of making myself anew 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to not see, realize, and understand that to be a good communicator I have to communicate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my word 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lazy at pronunciating words

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about what others will think of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the so-called 'others' don't care what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want people to give a fuck about me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand no one gives a fuck

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everything I want is on the other side of my fears, insecurities, and beliefs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am my own enemy and my greatest ally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have a wife or relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I know where to go, and I must do it

Day 171: Let Go of Control

If I achieved what I wanted, maybe I would not be here. I would be doing some things that are irrelevant for my life and for the life of others. I am here, I apply myself, I write blogs. Maybe if I had success in some ways that I wanted, I would not be applying myself consistently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cling to everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the outcome of things to be how I want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe things have to be how I want, instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that things, even when they don't go as I planned, can be even better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am not the one to decide what will happen next

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless whenever things don't go as I planned

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that how I am right now is maybe the best way I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without the things that I want, maybe I am better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will never have a family of my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to create a life for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the potential that I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear misery

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will do the best I can wherever I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am all that I have

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not choose always what's best for all and for me, thus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don't control outcomes, I am not in control or it's not the best, while this is not so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to let things be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence from my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to play God by wanting my outcome to be the real one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the most effort doesn't mean the best choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to do a lot of effort if I choose what's best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that only that which is not real stops existing

Day 170: The Wall Inside

The wall inside can be many things. For me it's about limiting beliefs mostly and accepted things without investigating them. Limitations like thinking I'm not worth it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the challenges I have are a present for me so that if I overcome them, I get that present

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to simply work on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself down every day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need more money to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need more studies to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to change my body type to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do something special to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am special

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have a bigger purpose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I do little things is how I will do bigger things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I see will be giving me the most benefit to myself, not money exclusively 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I do my best I will get somewhere

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself as someone that can make it in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can make it in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even try with all my heart to overcome my challenges

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up when I wake up from the bed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself down whenever I don't wake up and stand up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worth it of the good things in life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to suffer

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beat myself up for no reason

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to beat myself up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to explore about myself, keep that which is good and let go of the rest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the phrase, 'investigate everything and keep what's good'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to invest in myself and tools that will help me overcome any addiction and any limitation

Day 168: The Power of No

They say that Google tried to sell the company many many times or many attempts and they didn't sell it so they stuck with it and now it's a giant. 

Today I want to talk about the No's, the no's are what makes one find their way. It avoids the way that they should not go. I think that when we get no's is because there is another way, better way for us. 

And also there is something to learn when we get a no. For example in sales, every time we get a no we have something to improve, something we missed. I think that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be 'allergic to No's'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear no's, to fear rejection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that every rejection I get, I learn and I get stronger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I got a yes every time I want to do something, I would be doing anything instead of what's the best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can learn from every no

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that in learning you have to avoid mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to avoid making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that making mistakes is how I can learn the fastest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe if I don't make mistakes I am doing better, when in fact it's not so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes,  because apparently they are bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge mistakes as bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's better not making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am less if I make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my self-value depends on how many mistakes I make

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in the real world when you make a lot of mistakes you are closer to the goal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe perfection is not making mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself space to make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged if I make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do something right the first time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that to improve I need to make mistakes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to say

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to do everything alone 

I forgive myself that they have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's being weak when one asks for help from someone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to believe seeking help is being weak

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to not see that the more competitive people have teams

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in a team

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that participating in a team can be good

Day 165: Discipline and Balance

Discipline is not banging my head to the wall, although it could be if I had set that as a goal lol, I see that discipline is doing what I said - to me or others - until I'm done. 

I see I didn't fully understand Discipline and it seemed to me it came from the outside, when it has to come 'from within/from me' for Me, as something that I use to complete my goals, commitments and agreements.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot be disciplined

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe discipline is hard

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that discipline is habit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that whatever I allow to do in one day, I allow to do in many

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear boredom if I am disciplined

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that on the other side of discipline is what I really want in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot be disciplined with food

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot go back to be thin

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not discipline myself into being Here at all times aware

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worthy of being realized

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't deserve to have a good life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am sinful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a sinner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to be gentle and easy on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don't have to have wants in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can choose whatever I want to experience in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can decide what I want to do in this life and do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that once I am dead it's too late

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I am so hard on myself that I don't even want to want anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to experience anything in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not explore what it is that I want to experience in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that discipline is to do what I say I was going to do and nothing else 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whatever I commit to do is what I have to do with discipline

Day 162: Percieved Limitations

 

So what are or do you have limitations? Then if you don't have limitations let's do what's best for all. If you cannot do that it means you have limitations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that I have limitations

I forgive myself for not seeing that the world is only limited by physical laws and nothing else

I forgive myself for not seeing, realizing, and understanding that those who claim what's best for all is impossible are simply winning for themselves and not wanting everyone to win

I forgive myself for not seeing, realizing, and understanding that we have no excuse not to do what's best for all

I forgive myself for not seeing, realizing, and understanding that only those who are comfortable will not want everyone to be comfortable

I forgive myself for not seeing, realizing, and understanding that what's best for all is not selfish

I forgive myself for not seeing, realizing, and understanding that we can organize ourselves to create a world that's best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the limitations of those that say that what's best for all is not possible

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the extent of the brainwashing that there is nowadays, where no one regards what's best for all and everyone lives in self-interest only

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the extent to which I have been brainwashed to not consider what's best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in common sense we are all equal and we all deserve the same things to take care of ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the simplicity in common sense of we have to be there for each other

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the resources on earth should be allocated to the inhabitants of the planet, everyone included

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to become rich and in my quest disregard everything else and Equality for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I stand up for myself, nothing magical will happen

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is no magical way into a world that's best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will die, and when I die, I will regret not having stood up for myself and for All as Equals as Life

Day 161: Self-Forgiveness 1 - 100

1. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself.

 

2. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and judge self-forgiveness as difficult.

 

3. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take self-forgiveness seriously.

 

4. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what will happen if I apply self-forgiveness correctly, adequately.

 

5. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the use and the value of self-forgiveness.

 

6. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe self-forgiveness is only theoretical and not practical.

 

7. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to do self-forgiveness for others instead of doing it for myself.

 

8. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that unless I apply self-forgiveness for myself, it will be of no value.

 

9. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others will think of my self-forgiveness statements.

 

10. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that it doesn’t matter what others think of me.

 

11. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear it is too late for me to apply self-forgiveness.

 

12. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that it doesn’t matter how long self-forgiveness is, but what’s the content in it.

 

13. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing or “fucking up” with self-forgiveness.

 

14. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am free to create myself as the best that I can be.

 

15. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to rush doing self-forgiveness.

 

16. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I can apply self-forgiveness at my own pace.

 

17. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my past for my present instead of understanding it and changing it.

 

18. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that the past cannot be changed but it can be understood and processed effectively so that it doesn’t affect me now.

 

19. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that drugs are not the way in life.

 

20. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that unless I live self-forgiveness, it is useless.

 

21. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that self-honesty is the key with self-forgiveness.

 

22. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that mistakes are part of the learning process.

 

23. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes.

 

24. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don’t learn from my wins but from my mistakes.

 

25. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I succeed on my attempt, then I am winning, and if not, I am failing, when it is not about that at all.

 

26. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that life would be boring if everything I did succeeded.

 

27. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that if I think I don’t need self-forgiveness, then I am failing.

 

28. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am never truly alone.

 

29. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the divide between the dead and the living.

 

30. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be dead instead of realizing and understanding that life is where I have to be, for now.

 

31. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am far more useful alive than dead.

 

32. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being dead.

 

33. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overlook Jesus’ message instead of applying it in my life unconditionally.

 

34. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting old.

 

35. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that unless I stand up for myself, nothing and no one will.

 

36. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing freestyles and forgiveness unconditionally.

 

37. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am the same as Jesus, Buddha, and all others.

 

38. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear putting goals so big that I don’t know if I will be able to achieve them.

 

39. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have been given life exactly the same way as all others, including the greatest.

 

40. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having my things stolen.

 

41. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself and what I say.

 

42. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be grounded with myself here.

 

43. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am the breath of life.

 

44. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live what I preach, making it useless.

 

45. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear Ruben.

 

46. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I really am and live suppressed instead.

 

47. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself and my self-expression.

 

48. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am awesome.

 

49. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am the best.

 

50. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I can be the best version of myself in this life.

 

51. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being killed by people who disagree with me, like Jesus.

 

52. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that being killed for saying what I think is right and true is an honor.

 

53. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I will not be killed for saying the truth.

 

54. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that death is an illusion.

 

55. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I must be grateful for everything I’ve gone through.

 

56. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that self-forgiveness, as life, is not about getting it right or wrong, but about self-honesty and application.

 

57. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that friends can be supportive or an impediment depending on the relationship.

 

58. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to mess up my count to a hundred.

 

59. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everything that happened in my life, even losses, is specific for me to stand up and change forever.

 

60. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply self-forgiveness more often.

 

61. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to apply self-forgiveness because I am dead.

 

62. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to die to show others what not to do instead of living as an example of what to do.

 

63. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that negative examples are everywhere but real living examples are rare and needed.

 

64. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand my own power.

 

65. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that if I am never alone, I should start acting like it.

 

66. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I must show myself and others that my father didn’t die in vain.

 

67. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everything that happened is specific.

 

68. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell life to do whatever it takes to make me stand up instead of standing up myself.

 

69. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with women instead of focusing on myself first.

 

70. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that once I work on myself, I will find someone who matches me.

 

71. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am okay even without a partner.

 

72. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to finish things fast.

 

73. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am capable of much more than I think.

 

74. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am from Earth and the same as all others.

 

75. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that equality is what matters and all else is noise.

 

76. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in separation as if we are different, when we are not.

 

77. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am capable of doing what’s best even if I’m not doing what others are doing.

 

78. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand the level of specificity it will take to change the system.

 

79. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what changing the system entails.

 

80. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to change myself first and foremost.

 

81. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to do self-forgiveness as a show for others instead of doing it for myself.

 

82. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that unless I do it for myself, self-forgiveness will not be effective.

 

83. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that we are in this for life.

 

84. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose sight of the vision that everyone is equal.

 

85. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that death is the great equalizer between everyone on Earth.

 

86. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not put the same effort at the end as I do at the beginning of tasks.

 

87. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that if I don’t succeed in changing myself, many others will suffer as well.

 

88. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the responsibility I have in walking myself to life.

 

89. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living until old age due to body aches.

 90. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I can welcome all pains as they help me to change.

 91. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that the joy is not in the end, but in the process.

 92. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the process has an end.

 93. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am not a baby anymore and I have responsibilities.

 94. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want someone to take care of me instead of me caring for others.

 95. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am free to the extent that I give freedom.

 96. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that by giving I receive equally.

 97. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that life is about expression, not money.

 98. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that it’s not about blaming money, but redesigning how it works.

 99. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that this life is more important than I think.

 100. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I should care for everyone else as I care for myself equally.

Day 160: I Am the Same Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

No matter what happens I must be the same 'Yesterday, today and tomorrow', I cannot let events change me or anything else. I've seen that 'fame' tend to change me, basically I become more stupid lol and also worries about the future make me 'constrict' instead of walking with my head straight no matter what.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I must be the same yesterday, today and tomorrow - as Jesus said

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to let 'fame' change me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to let 'external attention' change me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am capable of being the same yesterday, today and tomorrow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I have 'some' time to apply myself to live so that I am the same always  - yesterday, today and tomorrow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy about finding ways to live what's best for all starting from myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I am Not the same yesterday, today and tomorrow = I have a problem

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I should not fear the future as it never arrives

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the future is simply the continuation of the present

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that all that I am is Here and that's where I must apply all of myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand both Past and Future do not exist one is past and the other is yet to come

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am Here no matter what always

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself because of the/my past instead of forgiving it and letting it go unconditionally

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am unconditionally Here no matter what happens

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see nothing that can happen is unsumournable and only death is final

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to change wether it is Yesterday, Today or Tomorrow

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to match the unconditionality of Life

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see that = To be Life I have to do like Life does

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that to do what Life does I have to Give as I would like to Receive

Day 159: Overcoming Resistance and Fear

 

 I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear never being able to overcome my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not alone

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear resistance

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I have to be okay with experiencing resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undrestand that resistance does not mean impossibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand  that resistance is the compass that indicates where should I go

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to respond to resistance with avoidance instead of application/facing resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to be grateful to resistance as it show me where to go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that fear is an illusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for fear instead of facing fear head on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am capable of facing my fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can act despite fear

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am more than capable to face and overcome resistance and fear by acting despite of it all

I commit myself to remind myself that my resistances show me the way to go

I commit myself to remind myself that I should go where I resist

I commit myself to show myself that fear is an illusion

I commit myself to show myself I can go where I resist

Day 157: Do - Never Try

Have the patience to become better;

If you 'Try' hard and do not succeed then you can get frustrated. 

Best to not try but instead Do so no matter what the outcome, you did your best. 

Because if you try it is a form of self sabotage because when/if it doesn't work you created a negative memory that will result in more easily Giving Up, and one should Never Give Up. 

Don't half-ass it. Never try - rather do to the best of your hability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to half-ass it when I percieve something is difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by judging something as difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have things easier instead of working for being better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the common sense of the phrase 'don't wish it were easier, wish you were better'

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is best to not give 'logical explanations' for giving up, either I do something or I don't, no excuses

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am not here to get/have things be easy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undrestand that difficulty is only a perception

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can become better to be able to do so called 'difficult things'

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to resist my reality instead of accepting that something is difficult to me at the moment for example a task at the job

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I do things usually that others regard as difficult like writing a blog

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that labeling something as difficult is an excuse to not give it my all

I commit myself to give it my all even when I percieve something as difficult

I commit myself to remind myself that 'difficult' things will make me expand myself

I commit myself to remind myself that difficult is something personal that I must overcome