Day 175: I Will Make Something Big

'I will make something big' maybe it's only me but I think everyone has this point inside themselves where they think that they will make something big, and it's cool because it doesn't have to be outside of themselves it can be on the inside and then maybe yes on the outside. 

 When the egg cracks from the inside the chicken lives, when the egg crack from the outside the chicken dies, meaning one cannot force anyone to do anything, it has to come by themselves on their own accord.

One day i will make something big because I am big on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in grandiose things instead of being here directing myself in every breathe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I dont necessarily have to make something big for others, but I can definetly make something big for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others how I can affect others instead of how I can affect myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can make change for myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if i come first that's the way to do it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to make movement in others instead of make movement in myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's too late for me 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize understand that as long as there is breath there is opportunity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take breath for granted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am very far from death, when death can come at any moment like a thief in the night

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have time to lose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a bubble around me of inaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I know I have to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in their routine day after day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need memory to function

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am understanding

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard help

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I don't really need help 

'Let go of every addiction and take it seriously to work on myself'

I commit myself to remind myself that I am serious

I commit myself to remind myself that I will not stop until this is done, it is done

I commit myself to remind myself that if others can do it, I can do it as well

I commit myself to remind myself I am the word 'unlimited'