Day 171: Let Go of Control

If I achieved what I wanted, maybe I would not be here. I would be doing some things that are irrelevant for my life and for the life of others. I am here, I apply myself, I write blogs. Maybe if I had success in some ways that I wanted, I would not be applying myself consistently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cling to everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the outcome of things to be how I want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe things have to be how I want, instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that things, even when they don't go as I planned, can be even better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am not the one to decide what will happen next

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless whenever things don't go as I planned

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that how I am right now is maybe the best way I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without the things that I want, maybe I am better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will never have a family of my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to create a life for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the potential that I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear misery

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will do the best I can wherever I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am all that I have

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not choose always what's best for all and for me, thus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don't control outcomes, I am not in control or it's not the best, while this is not so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to let things be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence from my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to play God by wanting my outcome to be the real one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the most effort doesn't mean the best choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to do a lot of effort if I choose what's best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that only that which is not real stops existing