Day 171: Let Go of Control

If I achieved what I wanted, maybe I would not be here. I would be doing some things that are irrelevant for my life and for the life of others. I am here, I apply myself, I write blogs. Maybe if I had success in some ways that I wanted, I would not be applying myself consistently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cling to everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the outcome of things to be how I want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe things have to be how I want, instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that things, even when they don't go as I planned, can be even better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am not the one to decide what will happen next

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless whenever things don't go as I planned

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that how I am right now is maybe the best way I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without the things that I want, maybe I am better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will never have a family of my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to create a life for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the potential that I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear misery

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will do the best I can wherever I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am all that I have

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not choose always what's best for all and for me, thus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don't control outcomes, I am not in control or it's not the best, while this is not so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have to let things be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence from my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to play God by wanting my outcome to be the real one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the most effort doesn't mean the best choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to do a lot of effort if I choose what's best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that only that which is not real stops existing

Day 163: Con-ditioned

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself in my daily living. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to diminish myself at all. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to condition myself to anyone else 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be gentle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not go easy on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it will not work if I am not feeling it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't need to have any feeling for me to apply self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thoughts I have about self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the gift that is self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself for real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe resistance to applying self-forgiveness is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it doesn't matter if it feels difficult, I have to apply self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must forgive myself to let go of the past and limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, in the past, to want to be close to people with money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can be the one that makes money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that self-limitations can be in many aspects of self

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am here in every moment of breath, aware, present

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my father is always with me, no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all my loved ones, my grandfather, all are with me at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not honor the support that I have been receiving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as if I don't have support from the hereafter

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to explain myself instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that first of all I have to understand myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as if I am alone when I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the phrase 'everything is known at all times'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear sounding mind washed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that you are brainwashed if you don't apply self-forgiveness and change