Day 123: Enjoy Yourself

Have you enjoyed yourself today? I have found I can enjoy what I do as well as take some time for myself to do something I enjoy, and it is fine. Something creative I enjoy, sports and more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take some time for myself daily to do something I enjoy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can take some time for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live the word enjoyment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not explore what I enjoy doing in my time off

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my life too seriously

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I can enjoy life more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to motivate myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how my life can be much more than what it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by not doing anything I enjoy supposedly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not learn to enjoy no matter what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe others have to amuse me instead of finding something I can do to enjoy myself

I commit myself to research what I enjoy to do more of it with measure

I commit myself to take reasonable time for myself to do stuff I enjoy doing

Day 122: Energy Levels

Sometimes I believe I have no energy, sometimes I have a lot. Both sides have to be taken with a pinch of salt and realize I can do whatever no matter my believed energy level experience, mind energy that is, to be amped up or a bit low.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need energy from the mind to move

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the energy from the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am here stable when I am not in the energy of the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the energy of the mind 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in mind energy without questioning where it comes from

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let energy guide my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not breathe when I am all caught up in mind energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see energy is not me

I commit myself to remind myself that I am not energy as mind energy

I commit myself to remind myself to breathe when I am all caught up in mind energy

Day 121: Resistance to Write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge writing as difficult and cumbersome

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe resistance to write is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be misleaded by resistance into not writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot write if I resist it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that resistance is not real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I resist writing then I should write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift in resistances that indicate what I should do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in fact resistance has no power on my physical body capabilities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist resistances

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am capable of doing anything despite resistances to do it

I commit myself to walk everything despite resistances

I commit myself to realise the gift as pointer in resistances

Day 120: Consistency is Key

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that consistency is key

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise the power of accumulation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that a form of trust emerges from consistency

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I am not consistent I am not supporting myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that consistency is self-support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the enjoyment in consistency

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge consistency as boring

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear commitment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can be consistent

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can't be consistent

I commit myself to live the word consistency

Day 119: Covid-19

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting covid-19

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame covid-19 for my living situation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to die due to covid-19

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my smell and taste if I get covid-19

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear suffocating due to covid-19

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting covid and passing it on my family or friends

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get the blame from passing on covid-19

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting covid-19 from touching something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting covid from sharing stuff like a cigarette

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame covid-19 for not having a job

I commit myself to remind myself that I am the creator of my existence so there is no need to blame anything

I commit myself to remind myself that if I get covid-19 I will have to walk it through and that's it

Day 118: Be Real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to betray myself when I don't trust myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in my potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take it easy at times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe fear is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act in fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself enough to not fear

Day 117: Bullies

Some have been bullied, some have done the bullying, and some have experienced both. Usually with bullying the victim can't make it stop until someone else steps in, usually someone who is in charge or responsible of both victim and bully.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being bullied

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bully others in the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that reporting bullying is the solution to make it stop

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't report bullying it won't stop

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that merely 'forgiving the bully' won't make it stop

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have suffered in silence instead of reporting the bully

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that reporting bullying is standing up for myself, or others

I commit myself to remind myself that bullying is unacceptable

I commit myself to remind myself that it is ok and a must to report bullying

Day 116: Work

It is what it is, in order to have money most of us has to work, in order to work depending on the job one has to have studies. Because I didn't study for what I wanted to I resorted to restaurant jobs, and I did not like them for the long run, so now I want to study more to have another job. Maybe I still have to resort to restaurant jobs while I study but with a goal of having another job it's more motivating. Due mostly to covid-19 I lost my job and now will have to find another one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to do a restaurant job again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread doing a restaurant job again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to not have to work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not finding a job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a home.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that any job within reason, is cool to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the process of looking for a job.

I commit myself to support myself to find a job.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am of value to employers.

I commit myself to remind myself to use the tools available to support myself in looking for a job.

Day 115: Friends

About friends, someone used to say that 'I don`t have friends, I live by principle.' and I used to take the first part of the sentence 'I don't have friends' and scare my friends that way. Supportive relationships as friendships are cool, to have a view of yourself from the exterior, friends can help navigate life, so friends as self support instead of merely entertainment which in the right dose is cool, is cool because in friendships you see who you are and can expand yourself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prevent me from having friends judging it as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the point 'no one is an island'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fucking up with having a negative friendship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prevent myself from having more friends by misinterpreting a sentence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge friendships as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that having friends is not bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prevent myself from having friendships from having judged them as bad.

I realise supportive relationships as friendships are cool

Day 114: Debacles in Life

About debacles in life, situations that one does not expect that are not pleasant.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life will always be stable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything in life will or has to come easily.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that debacles can and will come in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can to a degree prepare myself for anything that might come in my life, specially that related to money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am the directive principle in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not prepare myself as much as I could to be effective in the system.

I commit myself to prepare myself the best I can to become effective in the system.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am my own saviour.

Day 113: Back to basics

It's been a while, I started a new blog that now I can't access so I have decided I will write in this one again. Wow some years have passed and still I am wanting to study, not merely work. Maybe in the past I put myself to study stuff that didn't really interest me that much. I thought it would be cool to have the degree yet would not enjoy the process of getting it in the slightest - thus I would not apply myself to study.

I am resisting to do some self forgiveness which is the format I will give to this blog's, a little bit of writing and then self forgiveness.

I am a bit angry right now because the studies that I wanted to study have closed the inscription process so I will have to see and find a way to make it work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at my situation instead of looking for solutions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is always a way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to study what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to pay for my education.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money to live.

I commit myself to remind myself that anything is possible.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am capable of much more than I think