I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear the subject being difficult.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear the teacher making the subject difficult.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
blame others for the difficulty I may find in a subject.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
desire to have a forgiving teacher.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
desire to have a permissive teacher.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to ‘get away’ with sloppiness in my education.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in slopiness within my education.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
abuse the opportunities and permisiveness of teachers in the past by
participating in sloppiness getting away with it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in sloppiness whenever I arrive late without having prepared the
class.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in sloppiness in my education by handing homework out of time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in sloppiness in my education by writing papers fast and
inaccurately – delivering papers full of mistakes.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in sloppiness in my education by doing the homework without enough
time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in sloppiness within my education by not studying or not studying
enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in sloppiness within my education by ‘switching-off’ in my mind
when I am in class.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in sloppiness in my education by performing tasks/procedures in
practical classes without knowing what steps to take due to not having prepared
the class/task/procedure.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear not being able to stop participating in sloppiness within my education.
I commit myself to put myself to work in the subject I
signed up to do by studying the required knowledge and procedures – saying ‘no’
within myself whenever a judgement arise and breathing and I continue applying
myself within the subject wether I am at the class at home or elsewhere.
I commit myself to remind myself that it is me that makes a study
subject difficult whenever I don’t prepare myself effectively to integrate the
knowledge and procedures required to understand and be effectively with that
subject and within this I commit myself to review what I am doing with my time
whenever I see I am blaming the teacher/the subject of being too difficult and
accordingly assign time and work to the subject by placing extra time and
dedication to that subject – thus making it ‘easier’ for me.
I commit myself to realize that I am my own teacher and that
if I accept and allow sloppiness within my application I will probably ‘slip
and fall’ with my studies and have to do it over again – thus I commit myself
to stop desiring a forgiving/permissive teacher as that is only an excuse to
continue to ‘slip and fall’ by continuing to participate in sloppiness within
my education. Within this I commit myself to whenever I see I am participating
in and as sloppiness in my studies or elsewhere – stop, thake a breath and push
myself to continue my application and perfect it so that the task that I am
doing comes out in a way that I am satisfied that is effective and practical –
that it works.
I commit myself to remain ‘here’ whenever I am in class by
breathing and saying ‘no’ within myself to any thought/picture that arise – and
deliberately re-conducting my attention to the class/teacher/task I am
participating in the moment – physically here.
I commit myself to check the homework/tasks and knowledge I
am intergating by reading the papers and checking the numbers before delivering
a paper and by re-visiting in my mind or out loud or in writing whatever it is
that I am studying to make sure that it is in place and that I have
understood/learned/integrated whatever it is I am studying.
I commit myself to prepare myself before-hand the classes I
will attend by reading and studying and practising the topics/tasks that the
class will consist of so that I am effective and fluent with the topic/task as
much as possible and so that I am prepared to ask questions that I have not
been able to resolve or that I’d like an expansion on – making my learning more
effective.
I commit myself to see/realize/understand that fear – like energy
– is not real and in fact a self-manipulation technique to cover up self
interest thus I commit myself to investigate the self interest behind my fear
of not being able to stop my sloppiness within education as it is revealing a
self interest in not stopping it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to continue my participation in sloppiness within my education so that I
don’t get an education and don’t have to take responsibility for myself but be
supported by my parents – not having to take responsibility for myself
financially and not having to take responsibility for my world.
I commit myself to delibereately stop all the points I see
that I participate in sloppiness and immediately apply myself consistently
step-by-step breath by breath practically in whatever task I try to participate
in sloppiness - setting a flag-point for myself whenever I want to
participate/am participating in sloppiness in the realization that I am trying
to not take responsibility for myself/my world.
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