Day 180: Complex Subjects

Facing/studying complex subjects I should fear not, for I can take it in bite sized portions and use tools to help me in learning it. Recently I've been studying a vast subject and have been a bit discouraged by slow progress, I see I don't have to judge my progress and instead build on the building blocks of the subject until I have achieved mastery of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to learn L in a day

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that anything of worth needs careful study

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I must be comfortable with discomfort

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that complexity becomes easy with sustained attention

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not 'having what it takes' to learn complex subjects

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself learning L

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am capable of learning anything

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I already have patience enough to Learn anything

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have the tools to learn anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is simple to learn something

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to learn L without dedication

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe things must be available instantly like fast food

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see the value in learning things that take time to master

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am more patient than I think

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to work my job if I study into the night

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am ready to learn anything

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that wether I believe I am ready or not I am both correct

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I do everything totally there is no fail possible

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold back when 'doing things'

I commit myself to remind myself I can learn anything

I commit myself to remind myself everything is possible

I commit myself to remind myself 'impossible' is I'm Possible

Day 179: See Something? Say Something

 This world is not all that it can be. There is a lot of suffering and no one is exempt from homelessness. Once you are homeless it is too late. Most pepole don't have a safety net and can easely become homeless in a 'bad turn of events'. In every big city there is homelessness and it is not okay.

We 'are trained' to turn a blind eye. I visited Bucharest and there were homeless people, I'd gladly help them all but it is a systemic problem and I don't have the funds to do it myself. The system says 'ignore the homeless' and when it is your turn to be homeless, guess what? You are ignored.

It is vital for everyone on Earth to change the system to one that uplifts everyone, and the ultra rich will need to 'tone it down' -- we can raise the level of wealth for all to live a 'millionlaire' level of comfort and freedom, just not 'ultra rich' 'billionaire' status, thats not sustainable.

EMS Equal Money System, I'm one vote for it. 

'The Equal Money System is a New Worldwide system as a solution to provide All human beings with resources to Live an Equal and Dignified life. This System will be a first step in the political and democratic agenda of the Equal Life Party Worldwide'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no solution for homelessness eventhough I can see there are enough resoruces on Earth for everyone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that homelessness is a result of the current money sytem and it can be change into an EMS

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn a blind eye when I see a homeless person

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how money create castes as in levels for people to live out, with homelessness at the bottom and billionaire status at the top -- not Equal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am a valuable member of society in the degree that I work on myself to change it to what's Best for All

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the sytem trule does not care about me, only in the measure that I can get money and when I can't, the system chews me up and spits me out as homeless

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow blindly the sytem precepts of get a job make money and forget about everything else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the cost of me living 'my life' and 'that's it' as that creates the continuation of the system as it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to change others to change the sytem instead of seeing, realising and understanding I have to change myself and thus be an example - that's it

178: God & Me

If you cannot find something it means that you are that something and when you hear this phrase you think maybe about God, no one can find him therefore we are all God and this carries a big responsibility because we literally shape the way the Earth is and its problems

There are no problems, there are only solutions

The solution is an equal money system where everyone is supported

And on an individual level I can change my life at any given point when I am tired of the way I have been so called manifesting or creating a life that I don’t like for myself, I can change it

So 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my life has to be or go the way it has been going

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct myself to continue the way of life I have without questioning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have zest for life, to not be anticipating good things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I can have, be and become whatever I want in this life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see and realize and understand the gift that I have been given of money in the form of a paycheck in the form of a work so that i can develop myself in any way I want 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I don’t have to be a wage slave all my life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and around myself do not see realize and understand that I am not who I was - who I have always been, and I am not anyone new also - I am the one that has been here all the way along and will be after I die

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that death will easy my life instead of seeing that my life is actually very easy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that creating my life means being uncomfortable at points

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being god means having a lot of responsibility 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of responsibility or avoid it, try to avoid it 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can lose myself in something I can do - when this is impossible 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use drugs in the past to not face myself

 I forgive myself that i have accepted on myself to be pessimistic about myself and my life 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have the marvel of marvels on Earth which is a human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my physical body, and not properly take care of it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that change is inevitable - change is what it is what is going on - but I can direct change to be the best possible for Me and for All

Day 177: Air Traffic

Today I was thinking, if there is air traffic control in every country, why can’t we make a system that provides for everyone? We can do it.

There is no excuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the world is artificially scarce

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this world favors the super rich and the rich and the elite instead of favoring everyone equally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear challenging the status quo

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a good experience instead of doing what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the hypocrisy of the rich saying that this is how is it how it is not able to change to be changed 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that i have to speak up for everyone every one life, every single human being

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if i don’t speak up I am accepting and allowing the abuse to continue

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that unless i take action nothing will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the change starts with my self-change and nowhere else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that for the world to change I have to change myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have the tools to change and that I can get more to change more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that staying in silence is abusive in this world of abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that scarcity is artificial

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everywhere that help is needed, help is able to go, like when countries need extra food, water, or other medical attention, medical supplies, etc

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to make an inner work for me to be able to stand up for myself and for all

Thank you

Day 176: I’m Possible

I don't feel like writing. I don't feel like making a blog. But I don't feel like giving up also, which is stronger than this. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am stronger than giving up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that giving up is not an option

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that anything is possible 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that impossible means ‘I'm possible’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that, it doesn't matter how difficult it gets, I will never give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I am enough to write a blog a day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that unless I push myself to something it won't be done automatically

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that everything is possible 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my options are limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not think big

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am big

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that whether I think I am big or I think I am small, I am right

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself. to fear pain in dying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is pain in dying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have endured probably more pain in life than I will in death

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that one thing I will be proud of when I die is if I didn't ever give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I cannot help everyone before I help myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that maybe in helping others I will lose myself and then everyone's fucked because I cannot help everyone, I have to help myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to help others instead of helping myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that help is only possible if I assist myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the blog will not be good enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that as long as it supports me it's good enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there's no enemies, only self to be directed 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there's no fear that can stop me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being unimportant

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be important

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be relevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not treat myself as relevant and important to myself, and want it from others

Day 175: I Will Make Something Big

'I will make something big' maybe it's only me but I think everyone has this point inside themselves where they think that they will make something big, and it's cool because it doesn't have to be outside of themselves it can be on the inside and then maybe yes on the outside. 

 When the egg cracks from the inside the chicken lives, when the egg crack from the outside the chicken dies, meaning one cannot force anyone to do anything, it has to come by themselves on their own accord.

One day i will make something big because I am big on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in grandiose things instead of being here directing myself in every breathe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I dont necessarily have to make something big for others, but I can definetly make something big for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others how I can affect others instead of how I can affect myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can make change for myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if i come first that's the way to do it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to make movement in others instead of make movement in myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it's too late for me 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize understand that as long as there is breath there is opportunity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take breath for granted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am very far from death, when death can come at any moment like a thief in the night

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have time to lose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a bubble around me of inaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do that which I know I have to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in their routine day after day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need memory to function

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am understanding

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard help

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I don't really need help 

'Let go of every addiction and take it seriously to work on myself'

I commit myself to remind myself that I am serious

I commit myself to remind myself that I will not stop until this is done, it is done

I commit myself to remind myself that if others can do it, I can do it as well

I commit myself to remind myself I am the word 'unlimited'

Day 174: Freestyle Self-Forgiveness

Hey ChatGPT introduce my self-forgiveness:

"This text is a collection of self-forgiveness statements aimed at acknowledging fears, limiting beliefs, and emotional patterns. Through this process, the writer takes responsibility for their life and begins releasing dependency, insecurity, and self-judgment, moving toward personal empowerment and self-awareness."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying right now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I am a full responsible human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to want others to go easy on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted around myself to fear being left out and homeless 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, understand that I am the key to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the key to myself is outside of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the key to myself is within money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money the object of desire, instead of making myself anew 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to not see, realize, and understand that to be a good communicator I have to communicate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my word 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lazy at pronunciating words

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about what others will think of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the so-called 'others' don't care what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want people to give a fuck about me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand no one gives a fuck

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that everything I want is on the other side of my fears, insecurities, and beliefs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am my own enemy and my greatest ally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have a wife or relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I know where to go, and I must do it