Day 159: Overcoming Resistance and Fear

 

 I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear never being able to overcome my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not alone

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear resistance

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I have to be okay with experiencing resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undrestand that resistance does not mean impossibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand  that resistance is the compass that indicates where should I go

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to respond to resistance with avoidance instead of application/facing resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to be grateful to resistance as it show me where to go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that fear is an illusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for fear instead of facing fear head on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am capable of facing my fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can act despite fear

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am more than capable to face and overcome resistance and fear by acting despite of it all

I commit myself to remind myself that my resistances show me the way to go

I commit myself to remind myself that I should go where I resist

I commit myself to show myself that fear is an illusion

I commit myself to show myself I can go where I resist

Day 158: On Principle

I don't do things for likes, although is an 'ego boost' - best to act on Principle, the principle of what is Best for All, if people like it, good, if not - it does not matter, because not everyone will like it, we have to simply be the majority of people.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for my vlogs and blogs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be liked

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not like myself and look for acceptance and being liked outside of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am okay without recongnition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to accept myself  - all of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dislike myself over the years, instead of nurturing the initial self love I had for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am allright the way I am - with all my flaws

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am enough and do not need validation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be recognized instead of recognizing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise ans understand that even if only one person watch my content, it is worth it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that more views does not mean more quality of the material

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I say the thruth it will not be pretty or acclaimed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is false that I have to get views to be someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I should share unconditionally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stop if I don't get likes instead of being self-motivated

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I don't need external approval

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I should do what I see is Best for All and that's it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not enough

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not valid

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give up on loving myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am worth loving

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe it is valid to hate myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am not alone

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I must stop hating myself

I commit myself to investigate the reasons why I don't love myself and stop them

I commit myself to remind myself that I am lovable

I commit myself to remind myself I have to love myself first - before loving anyone else

Day 157: Do - Never Try

Have the patience to become better;

If you 'Try' hard and do not succeed then you can get frustrated. 

Best to not try but instead Do so no matter what the outcome, you did your best. 

Because if you try it is a form of self sabotage because when/if it doesn't work you created a negative memory that will result in more easily Giving Up, and one should Never Give Up. 

Don't half-ass it. Never try - rather do to the best of your hability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to half-ass it when I percieve something is difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by judging something as difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have things easier instead of working for being better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the common sense of the phrase 'don't wish it were easier, wish you were better'

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is best to not give 'logical explanations' for giving up, either I do something or I don't, no excuses

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am not here to get/have things be easy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undrestand that difficulty is only a perception

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can become better to be able to do so called 'difficult things'

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to resist my reality instead of accepting that something is difficult to me at the moment for example a task at the job

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I do things usually that others regard as difficult like writing a blog

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that labeling something as difficult is an excuse to not give it my all

I commit myself to give it my all even when I percieve something as difficult

I commit myself to remind myself that 'difficult' things will make me expand myself

I commit myself to remind myself that difficult is something personal that I must overcome

Day 156: When No One is Watching?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to behave different when I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that everything is known at All times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be entertaining if someone is watching when I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to live for others instead of for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am destined to fail

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself to fulfill my prophecy - self fulfilled prophecy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I should not change my behaviour when I am alone or if I think someone is watching

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a big deal of what I do in my life

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear not having any money

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am one amongst billions

I forgive myself that I have acceepted and allowed myself to have a worldview where I am central

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I can create a good life for myself and support others as well

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see that I come first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others that I regard as more than to plan my life

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see falling for behavior addictions is giving up

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I can stand up for myself and for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not redirect my energy into creativity instead of destruction/addiction

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of my living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be greateful for my past that thanks to it I am where I am now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I can be and become much more than what I think I can

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge awareness living as heavy and difficult when it is not so in fact

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I will be ok

I commit myself to remind myself that living with awareness is best

I commit myself to remind myself autopilot living is not good

I commit myself to breathe and be aware of breath as much as possible

I commit myself to practice integrity - doing what's best even when 'alone'

Day 155: When Not Loving the Past

Sometimes I am a bit annoyed - that's the word - when I am observing the past or what 'has just happened' because I don't like it, I judge the past, immediate or late past. Then I realize, hey, the past that 'just happened' has lead me to be here where I am now, where I have 'immense power' to change, to create my future in the present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist to my past, immediate or distant past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be grateful for all my past happenings and experiences as they led me to where I am now - where I can create anew

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand all that happened to me has led me to where I am now, capable of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see it is up to me to say 'enough is enough' to whatever it is I dislike of my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is up to me to in every breath bury the old and birth the new

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the 'lessons' from the past will be enough when I decide they are enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the power in the word decision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that from the shit grows the plant - thus my past can be however it is but I can make it grow into a beatiful life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not rejoice at where I am now - always clinging to the past that I cannot change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not  see, realise and understand I will stop reacting to my past when I decide and see it made me arrive where I am now - and for that I am grateful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that change is a decision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it will be too difficult to change everything of me - not seeing, realising and understanding one can do everything one breath at a time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself for my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I must be grateful to my past  as it made me arrive where I am, no matter how dark and ugly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my past instead of forgiving it and letting it go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I can change the future doing what is best in every moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am capable of being and becoming the best version of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that without accepting the future, forgiving and forgetting - I cannot create the future that is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I can do, be and become so much more than what I am currently doing and experiencing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not immediately forgive and forget the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control the future instead of focusing on Here and being flexible with whatever happens, that in turn can be blessings in disguise

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not accept and forgive and forget my past

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see the joy that comes with accepting my past

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand it is not how many times I fall but how many times I stand up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cycle my falls, repeat them instead of learning, changing and letting go

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I don't have to repeat my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the power of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that repeating the past is a decision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not decide what is best for All - and thus for me - in every moment of breath

Day 154: I Am Here

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live with the autopilot not realizing I Am Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this ‘being here’ has always and will always be 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don’t have to be ‘the best’ meaning giving the best conversation or other superlative, but simply be me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is fine being silent instead of wanting to be ‘more’ and ‘the best’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have an effect with my words instead of sharing myself unconditionally or having lighthearted talk

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be too serious

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my words will have a grandiose outcome instead of simply sharing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is best to be silent than to rant and rave

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the problem is thinking about the self - without the self there is no problem

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a powerful grandiose self

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I don’t have to ‘save the world’ - and it is impossible too

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take this burden upon myself of wanting to save the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impose to me the burden of guiding or saving others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am a savior instead of seeing I can only ever be an example

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can become an example, and that’s it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my own living will be the living example that I want others to have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be an example unto myself - for myself and others

Day 153: Fame Made Me Stupid

 I don't know if famous people feel it or notice it but the day I did a stand-up at a bar that went well, that night my friend beat me at chess a bunch of times, I was definetly distracted and could understand how famous people go weird some times.

When there is equality there are no special ones because everyone is special.

I am one, you are one, 1+1=2, not 1+1=0.75 or 2.5. So you can work out for yourself equals - that doesn't mean the same.

The most radical of all, the equality equation. And lets end Hollywood 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be famous

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to stand up for myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how shitty some people have it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to change whenever I perceive I have many eyes on me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see,  realise and understand it is not about how many people 'follow/listen' to me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear rejection 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be noticed

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to plan my life in my head instead of being grateful of what life offers me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use fear as an excuse to not perfect myself in self honesty

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I should get the attention of peers

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to link being liked to survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tie self worth to the attention I get 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link attention to money 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to be rich 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I am not rich is because I am not ready

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it takes action to be rich/wealthy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself instead of supporting myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not walk the talk

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace my situation fully, no matter how difficult it gets

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself with backdoors to my plan

I commit myself to close all backdoors to my plan 

I commit myself to either change the plan or stick to it unconditionally - no backdoors

I commit myself to be self-honest 

I commit myself to value what I have instead of resisting my situation 

I commit myself to be open to whatever happens 

I commit myself to embrace myself fully no matter where I am or what happens

I commit myself to embrace every situation as an opportunity

I commit myself to disregard fame and be true to myself at all times always 

I commit myself to be self-honest no matter how much money I have 

I commit myself to support myself to be aware in every situation 

I commit myself to watch my mind and direct myself to correct it effectively in every breath